Melissa and I are enjoying the night. Kellie has had her rant with us, and Ker-Ber is looking for London tix for all of us....vacation should work out nicely....Kel is just stressed. Can't say we blame her. I am the body that houses my crew....headaches are common, meds OTC, yadda yadda. We would never go back in time to scripts ever....money is not here anymore. And knowing insurance for dad would run out....big choices had to be made. When Ike hit, I went off all scripts cold turkey. The experience was enlightening. Yes, that's what I said. I learned that heroin addicts are to be embraced while struggling....don't diss us on any drug. Bad bad news.

Jumping through mental health hoops for a grand total of 26 years was not cool. 20 years of therapy from ages 12-32, in Network, and out of Network. Good grief. Everyone thought I brought the CP, DID stuff on me, and it's my fault that relationships at large are falling apart. Um.....we all play a role in America......and when the professionals walked over the lines of boundaries and blamed me....I was fuming. Yes....PTs, OTs, and Pyschologists met me off site for coffee, dinner, movies.....and confused us all to bits. Then, when I stood accused of being a bad social partner the weeks following, I simply walked away.......and let insurance and co-pays go to hell with the professionals.

Why get my family attorney involved? The stuff is gone.

If I start over, at age 33 now.......and that's a huge if......the lines will be drawn in the sand.

And it didn't matter if the PTs, OTs, or therapists had any level of degree.....from bottom level to top, I was in a dark place. One minute, it's my fault, and the next, we are in a bar having dinner.

Are you following this? Don't think I don't want help.....I just don't trust the pros and others to aid me here at all. All relationships are in the toilet. Flat affect, drugs, street drugs, booze, partying, loud everything, and even sex and violence.....yeah, we got it all in here in The Mansion. This is real, normal, and I don't care what people do to me. OR and ER mean nothing anymore....been there, done it since birth, and hope more comes. Going under means an MD is in charge of making sure I live. See? Be responsible. Women are from Venus....and you men are from Mars. Get over your stupid ways with me.....and women......stop hounding me because a man raped me and you let him go.

Jack Nicholson and Angelina Jolie mean the world to me. It's part of my life that one can see in One Flew Over The Cukoo's Nest and Girl, Interrupted. And yeah, Sybil with Sally Field was my key to knowing who I am minute to minute. A Beautiful Mind......a birthday gift......talk about bold statement.

Any movie that talks of the psyche.....bring it on......

Sybil
Girl, Interrupted
A Beautiful Mind
United States of Tara
One Flew Over The Cukoo's Nest

Others from Miss Angie from our year of birth in 1975....we share a birthday with Tina Turner too. Me and Tina.....November 26. And they named a hurricane after her ex......surreal. Next year, I hope they name one Tina......so she can do justice for us all.

Whoopi Goldberg has shown her true genioos too in Stream on FearNet.com. She plays a woman in her 50s and you see past, present, and future all on one screen. Dude. Brilliant.

And before Melissa and I go.....we want to thank all of you for not fully grasping us and such....because this is a day thing......day by day......and we never know what to expect here. 30 years in 2009 and counting.......

Cheers.

Susana

This is Brandon, or B Man....husband of E or Erin. Since we don't liike words much in this mind or body....I thought I'd post a song.....which will become several over the years ahead. Walking In My Shoes speaks for us all here. Listen to the lyrics. The body knows all of this.....too well, as do we members of The Posse who live in her head. Anyone with CP or DID, any disability, disorder, disease, difference at all will relate to her, and to us. Enjoy a life lesson that you may not get the first time around......you might want to put this on a loop or somthing like that to get it stuck in your head.

Peace!

Brandon/B-Man Mahoney

Hi everyone,

I'm Melissa Renee, married to Susana, the body of The Posse, 1 of 18, she being 19 to total us up. I have red hair, and green eyes. Some call me and Keith, my MD partner, devils. True. We are doctors in the ER here, and we treat anyone that comes in, serial killers, DID patients, elderly, disabled, and more. You can have any condition known to man, we care for all of you, despite what some may think about the effing health care system in America at large. Our partners, Kerry, Kellie, and Amy, do work with us too. Kerry and Kellie are personal trainers, and Amy is a DID specialist. We are all one big happy family in here. My wife and I have been married since 1993, October 10. We have a daughter, Melina Alison Anderson. Lina is 8. Her cousin, Emily Noelle, is 4.

The girls are very fragile. Emily is Deaf. Lina is able bodied, but fluent in multiple languages, since we all speak different ones. You name it, we understand it. European languages, Eastern languages, and more. Drop your labels and shizz at the door. Drop all your shizz, period especially if you have issues you are not willing to face yourself.

Keith and I are sick of hearing about America complaining about what a shitty country this is. We are not going to take that without seeing justice at full force served. If you are in the troops category, we treat you. We love all our patients as PEOPLE. You can kill, maim, torture, rape, molest, we don't care. To us, you are human, and we make you face your shit. If you die, we ask the Holy 6 to carry you on to wherever you'd like to go. There are 3 places, and if those are booked, you can just float in the air. Heaven, Purgatory, and Hell. If those are booked, you float. The 6 gods are pretty standard. Satan, Jesus, Allah, Buddha, and of course, Zeus and Athena.

My lovely wife and I had sex this week....sensual pleasure, and a lot of fourplay that lesbians do when they are making love. My wife has Cerebral Palsy and DID. No joke. But she's awesome, especially when sex is in the picture. She's HUMAN, after all.

As a doctor, I work 20 hours at a time, sleep in the on call room, and come home to a beautiful wife, daughter, and Posse family. We effing rock. Nuf said. Keith is unmarried, but he spends time with the guyz. Vincent, Brandon, and Stephen. Yes, the fab 4. Our 2 little girls love the guyz. And the 12 women that I am a part of, well, more estrogen means we can bitch, be proud, and be US.

Peace, and we hope to see you soon, in the ER, of course.

Melissa Renee

Hi all,

I'm Amber....the drinker. Love vodka, brandy, rum, and anything hard core. I'm a bottle huger, and love that too. Legally, this is the best thing ever. You can do it solo, in a crowd, whatever you like. That's why I love it.

Ciao!

Amber

Hi....I'm Erin, or E, as The Posse members call me. I am a druggie, and very proud of the fact that I admit it. Most won't in the world around me, and so......yeah. I love getting high, by nature, and my drugs of choice, Meth, and Ecstasy. Both are awesome. And here, in the Mansion, I can get high legally. Most would just call our dwelling anything ignorant to hide behind worldly excuses....pardon me while I puff on that...

Anyway, getting high is just my way of expressing me......along with movies of the psychological persuasion.......la la la.....c ya.......

Erin Elizabeth Mahoney