Hi everyone,

I'm Melissa Renee, married to Susana, the body of The Posse, 1 of 18, she being 19 to total us up. I have red hair, and green eyes. Some call me and Keith, my MD partner, devils. True. We are doctors in the ER here, and we treat anyone that comes in, serial killers, DID patients, elderly, disabled, and more. You can have any condition known to man, we care for all of you, despite what some may think about the effing health care system in America at large. Our partners, Kerry, Kellie, and Amy, do work with us too. Kerry and Kellie are personal trainers, and Amy is a DID specialist. We are all one big happy family in here. My wife and I have been married since 1993, October 10. We have a daughter, Melina Alison Anderson. Lina is 8. Her cousin, Emily Noelle, is 4.

The girls are very fragile. Emily is Deaf. Lina is able bodied, but fluent in multiple languages, since we all speak different ones. You name it, we understand it. European languages, Eastern languages, and more. Drop your labels and shizz at the door. Drop all your shizz, period especially if you have issues you are not willing to face yourself.

Keith and I are sick of hearing about America complaining about what a shitty country this is. We are not going to take that without seeing justice at full force served. If you are in the troops category, we treat you. We love all our patients as PEOPLE. You can kill, maim, torture, rape, molest, we don't care. To us, you are human, and we make you face your shit. If you die, we ask the Holy 6 to carry you on to wherever you'd like to go. There are 3 places, and if those are booked, you can just float in the air. Heaven, Purgatory, and Hell. If those are booked, you float. The 6 gods are pretty standard. Satan, Jesus, Allah, Buddha, and of course, Zeus and Athena.

My lovely wife and I had sex this week....sensual pleasure, and a lot of fourplay that lesbians do when they are making love. My wife has Cerebral Palsy and DID. No joke. But she's awesome, especially when sex is in the picture. She's HUMAN, after all.

As a doctor, I work 20 hours at a time, sleep in the on call room, and come home to a beautiful wife, daughter, and Posse family. We effing rock. Nuf said. Keith is unmarried, but he spends time with the guyz. Vincent, Brandon, and Stephen. Yes, the fab 4. Our 2 little girls love the guyz. And the 12 women that I am a part of, well, more estrogen means we can bitch, be proud, and be US.

Peace, and we hope to see you soon, in the ER, of course.

Melissa Renee

Hi all,

I'm Amber....the drinker. Love vodka, brandy, rum, and anything hard core. I'm a bottle huger, and love that too. Legally, this is the best thing ever. You can do it solo, in a crowd, whatever you like. That's why I love it.

Ciao!

Amber

Hi....I'm Erin, or E, as The Posse members call me. I am a druggie, and very proud of the fact that I admit it. Most won't in the world around me, and so......yeah. I love getting high, by nature, and my drugs of choice, Meth, and Ecstasy. Both are awesome. And here, in the Mansion, I can get high legally. Most would just call our dwelling anything ignorant to hide behind worldly excuses....pardon me while I puff on that...

Anyway, getting high is just my way of expressing me......along with movies of the psychological persuasion.......la la la.....c ya.......

Erin Elizabeth Mahoney

Life is good here this new year. 2008 ended well, as I looked back on the rest of the year this fall in preparation for January 1, 2009. I turned 33, celebrated a ton with me, close friends from all over the globe, and celebrated my complex puzzle of self. Hard to believe I have had CP for 33 years, and my DID for 30 years as of January 1, 2009. Yes, I celebrate my imperfections, because it's who I am and I keep me in line. Relationships come and go, but I have my DID always. It's like having a family on the inside of me. There are 18 of them, and 1 of me, totaling 19. And we rock. We write plays, we listen to music, view movies, watch TV, and spend time together when the rest of society can't wrap their brains around who we are. It's funny to think that even with resource books and materials, people are just too into themselves to wonder how we live. Reminds me of the book, really. Only as I write, I change the title for them. I'm Just Not That Into You Either! LOL.

Anyway, nuf said about that.....I love being me. There is never a change I can't deal with. I express me in all ways. Body and mind mostly. And people still don't get it. So, I post songs to describe what I am doing in this crazy wackadoo life.

Here's a list of songs that can get you started. There will be more......Bwa ha ha.......

Walking In My Shoes by Depeche Mode
Consume Me by DC Talk
Girl, Interrupted Soundtrack
Foxfire Soundtrack
NCIS Soundtrack
Le Roi Soleil Soundtrack
All The Best by Tina Turner (Anna Mae Bullock)
Travelin' Light by Queen Latifah (Dana Owens)
I Am...Sasha Fierce by Beyonce Knowles
The Live Set by Michael W. Smith
Lead Me On 2008 Edition by Amy Grant
Heart In Motion by Amy Grant
Momma Mia! by ABBA
Boomerang from Children Of A Lesser God Soundtrack

This past year, Amy Grant said something to me I will never forget at her Lead Me On Tour of 20 years. I sing for you.....and only you....people who wear blue jeans with bare feet, people who are addicts, people who are disabled, people who are different from society, and beaten down by the people in society who just don't get it. She also had this to say. Our faith saves us from ourselves. It was quite a concert.

Now, as I let her music Lead Me On......I focus on those who are different too. Those who boldly stand up for who they are, what they believe in, no matter what comes next. This to me is the meaning of life, and how change happens. Yes, We Can, and Change I Can Believe In. May President Elect Obama show the rest of America and the world he is just as imperfect, but yet, may he also try to be the best human being he can be in the four year term of service. I wish him well, and hope everyone can put aside the petty things they have to work hard at rebuilding this world we all inhabit.

He had me at Hello! :)

There is more to come later this weekend. For now, may this be enough, and I thank you for reading it. Life is up and down. You'll get it all here. After all, this is what being a human being is all about. Cheers!

A year to date...my last post was June 11, 2007, and today is June 11, 2008. So much has happened in the last year...where do I start? I had surgery again for my CP/Womanhood, and that was not fun. I am still in recovery, but on a two month break. I start up PT again sometime in August. Grr....I am getting leg braces for both legs, and will end up using my walker forever now. So much for independent movement now....the last time we did this I was 3 years old. Who knew CP could go totally into reverse? I seriously had no idea.

My parents are aging on top of my health issues, which leaves little time for updates, hence, the year long wait. I am also getting a new apartment soon...to try and live alone. I love family and vice versa, but I can't do this anymore. It's time to move on and see what there is to see. Once I get new address, etc, I'll post. A girlfriend of mine suggested a housewarming party, and I may take her up on that. We'll see.

Glad to know the O'Connor and Alexander families are doing well with the kids. Wow....they are getting so big! Keep in touch when you can, and I'll do the same. Ciao!

Wow...it's been forever since I updated here...but all is well. Family and friends are good, and activities have gone well. Today I had a psychological evaluation (interview) for Social Security Benefits, and my diagnosis was still the same. DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) which is a personality disorder that affects me most of the time, even when I am not "seen" by the public.

I act and look "normal" so no one knows I have the disorder to begin with. Only my MD and test/interview doctor know. It is mainly because of denial and lack of education for others in my life, family, and friends. Other therapists refuse to treat me because of stigma, and I am a fighter, as Mom said today. I'll fight to get the treatment I need if it ends up killing me.

Fear is not an option. I've got to get help before things get out of control. Like they haven't already. Pffft! Traits are hard to place with me. Switching is the reason why. I find it difficult to trust others, no matter what, so this can be a problem. I allow myself to establish some distance, and boundaries, and go from there. It's what saves time and trouble.

I hope this makes sense. It's complicated. But I have faith support will be found. It's the thing that keeps me going. Faith. Cheers!

I meant to say this in a previous post. April 2007 marks 1 year for me as far as having this particular blog. Thanks to Emily who showed me the one her husband made, and for encouraging me to jump on board with my own. LOL. Huzzah to anniversaries of all kinds, by the way.

The end of April is looking good. I'm enjoying family time, even though Mom and I have had our share of health issues. Next month, May, will be so busy. But I take it one day at a time, and succeed. That's all you can do in life...one day at a time.

I'm listening to a cool song by U2 called The Hands That Built America. Yeah, Gangs of New York is the movie it's based on, which I haven't seen, but yet, the song is great. Music has really done a lot for me these days. From pain control to aiding with chores, I have gotten far with it in life. Cheers to Liz for being a Music Therapy major...may Thailand be a new place to possibly try the craft, especially with the children there.

I love encouraging others. It makes me feel good, and hopefully, them as well.

I'll post again this weekend, after I see my friend Martin for lunch and shopping. It should be a good visit. Cheers to you all!