Wow...it's been forever since I updated here...but all is well. Family and friends are good, and activities have gone well. Today I had a psychological evaluation (interview) for Social Security Benefits, and my diagnosis was still the same. DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) which is a personality disorder that affects me most of the time, even when I am not "seen" by the public.

I act and look "normal" so no one knows I have the disorder to begin with. Only my MD and test/interview doctor know. It is mainly because of denial and lack of education for others in my life, family, and friends. Other therapists refuse to treat me because of stigma, and I am a fighter, as Mom said today. I'll fight to get the treatment I need if it ends up killing me.

Fear is not an option. I've got to get help before things get out of control. Like they haven't already. Pffft! Traits are hard to place with me. Switching is the reason why. I find it difficult to trust others, no matter what, so this can be a problem. I allow myself to establish some distance, and boundaries, and go from there. It's what saves time and trouble.

I hope this makes sense. It's complicated. But I have faith support will be found. It's the thing that keeps me going. Faith. Cheers!