Update

Monday we had my doctor visit and Erin came forward.  We discussed her desire to die, and the desire to live.  The doctor also said we can love family without actually seeing them face to face.  I love my sister, but seeing her would set me off, so I am declining plans with her this weekend and going to Kyle's instead.  We plan to see Prometheus and head to Hobby Lobby.  Fun!  Painting will be great.  And having my laptop means more desk space.  Yay!

I'm looking forward to painting.  What can I say?  My alters have a creative streak.  LOL!

More to come...

Erin And DID

I feel blessed and lucky at the same time.  The bills are getting paid with money to spare.  My DID art is now accessable by way of Nan's Ohio site, and by way of links in my e-mail.  Dropbox is the bomb.  I love transferring files to my phone to share in therapy.  Edication matters to me.  Reaching friends and family matters.  I can't leave them ignorant.

Things are crazy with The Posse at the moment.  Erin is struggling to just stay alive.  Valerian works.  When she's not sedated and not triggered, her art is beautiful.  She'll be in isolation till November.  I can at least get through hurricane season with fewer panic attacks.

Life is good....I just need her to be my strength now, and I know she can't be.  So I'll keep paying the bills until she's released...

Behind But Catching Up :)

March through May brought many celebrations to our lives.  March and April, family and friends' birthdays.  May...another friend's birthday and his trip to Yale to see his nephew graduate.  Now it's June and I am a busy bee.  I am working on mental health art projects and really trying hard to stay grounded in daily life.  Thus can be challenging especially when my mind is everywhere.

DID and CP keep me busy.  About two weeks ago I sustained a hard fall, and had to recover with my cane.  For awhile I wanted my walker and then thought, no, I'll keep the cane around.  My niece named them Stanley The Stick and Wally The Walker.  And should I need a wheelchair one day....I'll just call her Stella The Great.

Today was a cane less day and a day full of art.  Music, art, and meditation.  That's us in a nutshell.  Dominic came out and I think he may be the first student to integrate.  We'll see.  There are twenty of them so my brain is packed with them and the Posse of twenty from 1979.

Tonight Melissa, Emily, and Melina all fronted at once.  Oy what a headache.  They are asleep now.  And I'm awake.  Inspmnia.  Boo hiss.

I'll post again sooner rather than later....