American Idiot Dookie Throwing Male Doctors and Toxic Female and Male Relationships at LARGE out! New Doctors and new friends for LIFE in!
All in less than 24 hours TODAY! Halla!
OBGYN
Baclofen Pump Pain Management Specialist
Neur0logist
Family Practice
Ta DAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Family and Friends GONE! Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Doctors work for the WOMAN patient now! ME and ME ONLY! Halla!
First two doctors are WOMEN. Second two are MEN but I don't take any SHIT. Hahahaha! Foxfire and RENT anyone????????? Chips and Buzzline, Mafia Wars, Stagehands, Scripts, lines, costumes, music.....The WORKS!
Bought a cool spread for Martin's 30th birthday today and gifts should arrive prior to your big bash day so Happy 30th Birthday to my Best Friend of almost 11 whole years! Yippee! :]
Horomone Replacement Gel therapy daily is Awesome.
Baclofen Pump was reprogrammed, tweaked up again....due to tense muscles, extremely high tone, severe spasticity, PAIN on a 10 scale, and all due to Script Meds!
Cymbalta
Oral Baclofen
Flexeril
Not only was the Whole Body thrown off with Massive Vertigo and Bleeding, but we also discovered that the extreme personality and behavoral changes were a DIRECT LINK to the drugs affecting the PUMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moron family and friends owe me nothing. I laughed all the way home. And laughed again when Idiot Pump doctor, Male Pig decides he wants to see me AGAIN at NO CHARGE on July 14th to tweak the Pump....Um...Hey Asshole......TOO LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cancelled HIM OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
New doctor has 6 TIMES MORE experience, papers from experiences published and does full blown seminars and tours of Baclofen Demonstrations, etc. etc. with a full staff. Office, Dr. Colleague, and PTs on Call 5 days a week in the office! Two hospitals in Houston will see me. FULLY COVERED by AMERIGROUP MEDICAID. TIRR and METHODIST with NeuroSurgeon! Halla! Whole team! No holds barred....and no more socialistic BS from friends and family crappy people to stand between me and my health!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's me, the June Sky Disabled Peeps who DIED and let me LIVE, along with the Black Voices of America.....White, Asian, and Hispanic! C ya yo! Foxfire is ON! I Don't Want To Think About It, You, Me and My Charms, and now.....for me n' my Posse of DID 20....Let's Get F***** UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am going to ENJOY the rest of my LIFE now. C ya when I C ya! :P :]
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Atheist Blog: A New Day This Summer.
LOL....Niechzhe.....Stronger. Oh yes. Stronger with Hollywood movies, TV, music. When my words fall on deaf American ears. LOL.....no wonder other worlds on Earth hate me too. Duh. When you grow up under greedy principles, with white people for family and friends, and you are taught one second to love the blacks, asians, and those of hispanic origins and then to HATE them, well, the bullies are my peeps now. Scott and I should have grabbed Daddy army guns. Duh. He served Italy. Scott went to Army boot camp and was due in Camp Le June but died prior to going in the next day, and our grandfathers served well. Army and Airforce. Duh. Hello. Entire family grew up with Discipline and belts, yardsticks and hands, pain, pain, and more pain, and ADD, CP/DID....our Survival Modes! Still doing that with the MAN dead nearly 9 years as of December 17th! LOL! The man handed me a new bottle last night. Vodka. A twist from the Dos Equis. Pot? Yes. Crack? Ecsasy? Meth too? Absolutely! Hell, we have AK-47s in June Sky too! The fellas from Columbine and V. Tech are here waiting for TX men 21 and over with their legal licences to hit the dirt paths and start shooting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! University campus life will NEVER be the same here in The Lone Star State now. And who knew Perry would say no to the money Obama was willing to hand down? It's been said that Social Security will die out by the time I am 40 and my money will be GONE so I can DIE like I am SUPPOSED to, and not give a darn! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scott, Mark, Matt, Jade, Chris, Ray.....Susana's coming up to June Sky to Dance and do Theater for the rest of her LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREE of Charges! Free of religion, Free of sex scandals and sex Straight people who tell me I can't do that and be GAY! People who tell me I am too negative! Satan isn't real! Boom. You can't have a whole HUMAN without me! Duh. ADD/CP/DID/Booze, Drugs, Guns, Rap, Broadway, Country, Horror, Hallucinations OFF meds!, Medications, surgery, doctors who don't have boundaries, WOMAN vs. MAN, stupid RELATIONSHIPS that don't mean a thing unless Susana follows America's RULE BOOK THE BIBLE! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
According to Joyce Carol Oates and John Milton.....Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been? Paradise Lost, Genesis and Revelation....well, according to my University Alumni Life....ALL ARROWS point ME to Pergatory! Hell and Heaven are for the idiots who are WHITE and think they can CONTROL Susana with senseless MIND CONTROL, Verbal words, hitting and spanking, and cotrolling where she lives, who she sleeps with and who her friends are. HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am staying in The Woodlands TX till I die. Then, my body will be donated to science like my maternal grandparents. NOLA and Shreeveport baby! Halla! Eat me America! TX needs a wake up call! Red State for Blood and Republicans. REDRUM! Stephen King you are a GENIOUS! And Lisa Marie and Elvis.....Angie and Jack......HELLO! Been a fan for YEARS!
Logic Equation for those who care:
G.E.F.L=W
Good And Evil And Freedom And Life Equal WHOLE WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Perfectly Imperfect Package cares NOT what YOU think, word, or deed her into! Christians, sorry. You thought you had me. Nope. Ba da da da da da....Pffft! Stigmata and Satan are indeed a part of your stuff. READ! And READ the books about DID, CP, ADD, AIDS, MS, MD, Spina Bifida, Paralyzed people, Parkinsons and all the stuff YOU say will be CURED and RECOVERED ONE DAY. Yeah right. The dead are going....Puh Leeze. Too damn late for US!
And besides, what kind of creepy world would you have if the disabled and sick were GONE? Easy. Huxley wrote that one too! Brave New World full of White KKK people who kill and destroy the Robots who are DIFFFERENT! HA Ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please teach your kids INDIFFERNCE! Not love and hate because Erasure keeps that anthem going for ME. We LOVE to HATE YOU SUSANA MARIE MAY! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So sorry my NEGATIVE CRAP can't show you that in order to be POSITIVE you have to STRUGGLE, SURVIVE, and WIN the WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Booyah. Exits stage right with Blacks, Asians, Hispanics, and Disabled Peeps who are living on Earth and in June Sky! C ya! :) :P :] :}
LOL....Niechzhe.....Stronger. Oh yes. Stronger with Hollywood movies, TV, music. When my words fall on deaf American ears. LOL.....no wonder other worlds on Earth hate me too. Duh. When you grow up under greedy principles, with white people for family and friends, and you are taught one second to love the blacks, asians, and those of hispanic origins and then to HATE them, well, the bullies are my peeps now. Scott and I should have grabbed Daddy army guns. Duh. He served Italy. Scott went to Army boot camp and was due in Camp Le June but died prior to going in the next day, and our grandfathers served well. Army and Airforce. Duh. Hello. Entire family grew up with Discipline and belts, yardsticks and hands, pain, pain, and more pain, and ADD, CP/DID....our Survival Modes! Still doing that with the MAN dead nearly 9 years as of December 17th! LOL! The man handed me a new bottle last night. Vodka. A twist from the Dos Equis. Pot? Yes. Crack? Ecsasy? Meth too? Absolutely! Hell, we have AK-47s in June Sky too! The fellas from Columbine and V. Tech are here waiting for TX men 21 and over with their legal licences to hit the dirt paths and start shooting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! University campus life will NEVER be the same here in The Lone Star State now. And who knew Perry would say no to the money Obama was willing to hand down? It's been said that Social Security will die out by the time I am 40 and my money will be GONE so I can DIE like I am SUPPOSED to, and not give a darn! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scott, Mark, Matt, Jade, Chris, Ray.....Susana's coming up to June Sky to Dance and do Theater for the rest of her LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREE of Charges! Free of religion, Free of sex scandals and sex Straight people who tell me I can't do that and be GAY! People who tell me I am too negative! Satan isn't real! Boom. You can't have a whole HUMAN without me! Duh. ADD/CP/DID/Booze, Drugs, Guns, Rap, Broadway, Country, Horror, Hallucinations OFF meds!, Medications, surgery, doctors who don't have boundaries, WOMAN vs. MAN, stupid RELATIONSHIPS that don't mean a thing unless Susana follows America's RULE BOOK THE BIBLE! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
According to Joyce Carol Oates and John Milton.....Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been? Paradise Lost, Genesis and Revelation....well, according to my University Alumni Life....ALL ARROWS point ME to Pergatory! Hell and Heaven are for the idiots who are WHITE and think they can CONTROL Susana with senseless MIND CONTROL, Verbal words, hitting and spanking, and cotrolling where she lives, who she sleeps with and who her friends are. HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am staying in The Woodlands TX till I die. Then, my body will be donated to science like my maternal grandparents. NOLA and Shreeveport baby! Halla! Eat me America! TX needs a wake up call! Red State for Blood and Republicans. REDRUM! Stephen King you are a GENIOUS! And Lisa Marie and Elvis.....Angie and Jack......HELLO! Been a fan for YEARS!
Logic Equation for those who care:
G.E.F.L=W
Good And Evil And Freedom And Life Equal WHOLE WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My Perfectly Imperfect Package cares NOT what YOU think, word, or deed her into! Christians, sorry. You thought you had me. Nope. Ba da da da da da....Pffft! Stigmata and Satan are indeed a part of your stuff. READ! And READ the books about DID, CP, ADD, AIDS, MS, MD, Spina Bifida, Paralyzed people, Parkinsons and all the stuff YOU say will be CURED and RECOVERED ONE DAY. Yeah right. The dead are going....Puh Leeze. Too damn late for US!
And besides, what kind of creepy world would you have if the disabled and sick were GONE? Easy. Huxley wrote that one too! Brave New World full of White KKK people who kill and destroy the Robots who are DIFFFERENT! HA Ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please teach your kids INDIFFERNCE! Not love and hate because Erasure keeps that anthem going for ME. We LOVE to HATE YOU SUSANA MARIE MAY! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So sorry my NEGATIVE CRAP can't show you that in order to be POSITIVE you have to STRUGGLE, SURVIVE, and WIN the WAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Booyah. Exits stage right with Blacks, Asians, Hispanics, and Disabled Peeps who are living on Earth and in June Sky! C ya! :) :P :] :}
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Imagine That.....No HEAVEN or HELL....June SKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stars and Dance! Oh yeah! Life and Death in TECHNICOLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Coldplay did it again! Gwenyth, Apple, Moses, Chris....Love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am PROOF that LIFE And DEATH matter! Beat it all AGAIN this summer and now....I'm going to travel the GLOBE!
So where do you live anyway?
Mostly in my HEAD. I'm just passing through.
That's not very safe you know.
I look in their eyes....if I don't think it's safe I don't get in the car or house, office, church, or anything else.
How can you tell?
It's a question of REALLY LOOKING.
So where do you go to school.
I don't. I was thrown out.
For what?
For THINKING FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And the Big Bang Theory with Alumni Jim Parsons....Pencil between our teeth to run script lines from Doc and staff. Whee! Foxfire was filmed on location in Portland OR! Love you Martin and Kelly and lovely family (Miss Olive too! Purr!)
Drew Hoovler and the cats in shop! Kevin and his AMAZING sets! Running lines witih Paige Warner and ClaireMarie's costumes.......doing the coolest French workshop EVER with Anne and husband Guy Pierre Couleau! OMGoodness that was the BEST EVER for this well rounded student of all arts! Kitty kat came on stage and Guy asked if he was pregnant! Ha ha ha! Fat Kat. Too cute! Got 2 of my own! Sammy Boy Raggamuffin and Sia Mia Ruby Blue Eyes! Next door is a Ragdoll named Akira and she's a sassy gal at 10! So sweet! Purr! Meow! In my Zoo Story, we have all kinds of lovely animals, CAGE FREE!
Love that idea. Farm animals who are humane and loved. Awww......yeah, some of that is food, but I respect the ones who die for me.......humans just don't get it. Animals do love and lie for us when we need the sacrifice! Ellen has her line called Halo and it's awesome. Rachel Ray too. And Miss Maggie Puppy McGraw is so sweet!
Phil is from Denton and UNT! Got his Ph.D there! With Robin in tiny apartment. Awww. Inside My Heart, Relationship Rescue, What's Age Got To Do With It? and Life Matters, Self Matters, and Susana knows her Fictional and Authentic Selves Do Matter!
I Believe in my own Self Love!
Don't have to wait for others to tell me when to run!
You think I have time to wait on you to tell me this and that?
No! I am moving on with the cast of A. Lloyd Weber's CATS! REOW!!!!! Surprise! Mc Caviity's Not Here! Halla! And yes Brent....Rum Tum Tugger and Mr. Mistofeles are my peeps! Hug Charlotte long distance! She's a sweet gal! =^.^=
Goth Drag and my script Gothic Women of Salem in new revision. Tyler Perry and Madea in da house! Halleluyer! Don't mess with this Diva Perfectly Imperfect gal or she'll rip out your urethra tube! I ain't goin I ain't goin! I Can Do Bad All By Myself because my life is Hard, Challenging, and the end is too PRECIOUS to waste!
Grey's Anatomy is all RACES in one show! Halla! And Chandra Wison is an HSPVA grad! Whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I donate to NOLA when I can. Love NOLA! Dookie Chase and Antoine's in ze French Quarter! Good one, and Let me bring you up to speed. Susana is made new daily.....zere! You are now up to speed and let's have a hamberger! LOL! Steve Martin ROCKS on banjo too! Bringing Down The House w/ Queen La TIfah Dana Owens.....Tina Turner November 26th with ME! ROCK!
C ya ya'll! :P :)
So where do you live anyway?
Mostly in my HEAD. I'm just passing through.
That's not very safe you know.
I look in their eyes....if I don't think it's safe I don't get in the car or house, office, church, or anything else.
How can you tell?
It's a question of REALLY LOOKING.
So where do you go to school.
I don't. I was thrown out.
For what?
For THINKING FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And the Big Bang Theory with Alumni Jim Parsons....Pencil between our teeth to run script lines from Doc and staff. Whee! Foxfire was filmed on location in Portland OR! Love you Martin and Kelly and lovely family (Miss Olive too! Purr!)
Drew Hoovler and the cats in shop! Kevin and his AMAZING sets! Running lines witih Paige Warner and ClaireMarie's costumes.......doing the coolest French workshop EVER with Anne and husband Guy Pierre Couleau! OMGoodness that was the BEST EVER for this well rounded student of all arts! Kitty kat came on stage and Guy asked if he was pregnant! Ha ha ha! Fat Kat. Too cute! Got 2 of my own! Sammy Boy Raggamuffin and Sia Mia Ruby Blue Eyes! Next door is a Ragdoll named Akira and she's a sassy gal at 10! So sweet! Purr! Meow! In my Zoo Story, we have all kinds of lovely animals, CAGE FREE!
Love that idea. Farm animals who are humane and loved. Awww......yeah, some of that is food, but I respect the ones who die for me.......humans just don't get it. Animals do love and lie for us when we need the sacrifice! Ellen has her line called Halo and it's awesome. Rachel Ray too. And Miss Maggie Puppy McGraw is so sweet!
Phil is from Denton and UNT! Got his Ph.D there! With Robin in tiny apartment. Awww. Inside My Heart, Relationship Rescue, What's Age Got To Do With It? and Life Matters, Self Matters, and Susana knows her Fictional and Authentic Selves Do Matter!
I Believe in my own Self Love!
Don't have to wait for others to tell me when to run!
You think I have time to wait on you to tell me this and that?
No! I am moving on with the cast of A. Lloyd Weber's CATS! REOW!!!!! Surprise! Mc Caviity's Not Here! Halla! And yes Brent....Rum Tum Tugger and Mr. Mistofeles are my peeps! Hug Charlotte long distance! She's a sweet gal! =^.^=
Goth Drag and my script Gothic Women of Salem in new revision. Tyler Perry and Madea in da house! Halleluyer! Don't mess with this Diva Perfectly Imperfect gal or she'll rip out your urethra tube! I ain't goin I ain't goin! I Can Do Bad All By Myself because my life is Hard, Challenging, and the end is too PRECIOUS to waste!
Grey's Anatomy is all RACES in one show! Halla! And Chandra Wison is an HSPVA grad! Whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I donate to NOLA when I can. Love NOLA! Dookie Chase and Antoine's in ze French Quarter! Good one, and Let me bring you up to speed. Susana is made new daily.....zere! You are now up to speed and let's have a hamberger! LOL! Steve Martin ROCKS on banjo too! Bringing Down The House w/ Queen La TIfah Dana Owens.....Tina Turner November 26th with ME! ROCK!
C ya ya'll! :P :)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Wow! Susana is going to stay in Fawn Ridge Apartments because her control freak world of people can't stop her! Soon family will leave Spring to move south to be near my older siblings in Katy and Sugar Land and I DECLINED the move, so I am staying put! Transportation is here anyway, and doctors can be arranged after the Medicare Disability fight ends. We may go to court in late summer for appeal hearing and for now, slow comeback with Cymbalta permanent damage to Susana's body and brain the CP/DID endured. Damn......lots of complex stuff here. Eyes, brain and memory short term issues, overall muscles and walking impaired now with walker and cane, dizziness, etc. and what the FRAK happened? My OBGYN CHEWED OUT the clinic Staff FRIDAY! WOW! Boom Boom POW President Obama! We have Reform up here in Conroe for Medicaid and I HOPE Medicare is going to follow suit! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Susana is SAFE! Here she comes Fawn Ridge! New Baclofen Doctor in Houston for now....2 in practice helping each other out! Nice! Conroe has one too. No problem! The database for doctors is HUGE in TX, any city or town all over the State! Dude. Who knew 3 phone calls later, I am on my way to hopefully getting stable. Surgery may be possible if the catheter is damaged because it's all implanted in the abdomen and wrapped around my spinal cord with the catheter and wires. Chris Reeve anyone?????? I could be paralyzed with one wrong move here ya'll. NOT GOOD, but Chris is fighting like heck for me, not to mention Scott, Jade, Matt, Mattie, and others who LOVE me UNCONDITIONALLY in JUNE SKY with Angelina, Brad, the kiddos, NOLA, and Miss Tina Turner, Beyonce, Idina Menzel, RENT cast of 1996 and 2005, my NY peeps David and Brent with Craps for Guys and this Doll, and DANCE with all kinds of Theater. Whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This Diva's back on stage baby let's have fun!!!!!! I am so jazzed! This all went down Friday. Daaamn.....Jesse L. Martin is hot in his new series on TV this summer. RENT cast members are burning up screens all over the place! Wow!
And yes, my 5 year old niece loves Elsie the cow....MOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We drink the sweetest milk we've ever tasted EVERY DAY! Halla! :P :} And Susana and the wee one are BRAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's a gal who beat the odds when her family left her to go drug up and drink, and she's a fighter! Just like her Auntie! WHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And we don't Stand Alone! We can give you Perfume and Promises for the first day of the rest of our lives! YES YES YES We CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ji Ho! Victory! Slumdog Millionaire and SImply The BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Travelin' Light now. This Queen Diva is ON the ROAD to Bohemia baby! RENT? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In DRAG yo! Love you Brent! We so need to do this Drag Queen Diva run the next time you are in town! Seriously yo! LOVE YOU and the PT persuit! I am HONORED! Bows to Mr. Smith.......Kisses his feet and Covers Him with 1,000 Kisses and No Baggage! Halla!
And to my ladies and Sandy, Joyce and Doc.....We are Gorgeous! Idina is a GEM! Chess In Concert is OUT now. I can't wait! She and Adam and Josh Groban are so brilliant in this lovely musical at the Royal Albert Hall in my gal's CP home of London as a rare lady. CP is less common in other countries. She's a gal who fights. And she's studying Italian in Italy for 10 months. It's required for her to go....unlike here where you choose to go. Nice! Miss Jessi is gonna be da bomb! She's so sweet and we Skype FREE with pal Dawn from Glasgow Scotland too! LOVE THAT!
Duffy and Amy MacDonald Rock! Check out their music because both were released here and Dawn mailed me her copy all the way from the UK. Very special. She and Jessi keep me going when America gets snooty with me....and without them, I'd be passed out on the floor. Michelle Love, Guam may be in the cards. I don't know what the days hold for you dear, but don't give up. Be like me. Don't give up with the wee one on the way because being a mommy will totally rock your life for the better. Meekey and I fight like hell still girl and we couldn't have won this fight without you! Hugs dear!
Jennilyn and Ryan......I am forever grateful to you two for being rocks when the shifting sands sink me low with health things. I'm Not Dead...Just Floating! Gotta keep Going Forward! Chris Reeve is my HERO. I lost most of my Disabled peeps in the last few years and feel so alone now.....but you two stand up and fight with me when all seems out of control. HUGS you guys! Susana may never be 300% again due to Cymbalta deadly reaction in the ER 3 times so far, but she's FIGHTING to LIVE! Refugee by Melissa Etheridge. I don't have to live like a REFUGEE! Indeed!
Doc and staff..... I am not sure just how well I can function on stages for community theater, but I think I can do some small things. We have to wait and see. CP and DID is shot out of a cannon. I am back, but damage to brain, bones, muscles, and such is so bad that my pain and stuff is off the charts! It's up a ton now....and symptom control is so hard.....new fights with new symptoms like bleeding now have me very worried! No cures. It's like AIDS. Scary as Hell. We have more tests scheduled. And I am terrified. CAT scans to look at tissue. MRI scans and Bone scans and density tests from my hysterectomy 15 months ago.
Can Susana survive? Absolutely! But it's going to be VERY different. Noticed the drastic changes in 48 hours when Cymbalta took effect. Withdrawl like Mimi....and the body just said NO way! I feel like a 90 year old and I'm only 33.....and with the medical stuff now upped higher with this deadly mistake, I am horrified. Zero compensation! Wow. I can't stomach that at all guys!
I am not me anymore. It was like the Cymbalta sucked all the stuff out of me! I am looking dried out and such too because I can't get the nutrients to absorb and stay in blood and bones. Scary scary! We are hoping we can at least stablize me again at home. ER is packed! Wow.
Susana is going to keep fighting. People give her Hell, but she knows better. I see Hell as opportunity to keep moving on. Good, and bad. I am WHOLE now.
Much love peeps of the world!
Susana
And yes, my 5 year old niece loves Elsie the cow....MOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We drink the sweetest milk we've ever tasted EVERY DAY! Halla! :P :} And Susana and the wee one are BRAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's a gal who beat the odds when her family left her to go drug up and drink, and she's a fighter! Just like her Auntie! WHEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And we don't Stand Alone! We can give you Perfume and Promises for the first day of the rest of our lives! YES YES YES We CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ji Ho! Victory! Slumdog Millionaire and SImply The BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Travelin' Light now. This Queen Diva is ON the ROAD to Bohemia baby! RENT? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In DRAG yo! Love you Brent! We so need to do this Drag Queen Diva run the next time you are in town! Seriously yo! LOVE YOU and the PT persuit! I am HONORED! Bows to Mr. Smith.......Kisses his feet and Covers Him with 1,000 Kisses and No Baggage! Halla!
And to my ladies and Sandy, Joyce and Doc.....We are Gorgeous! Idina is a GEM! Chess In Concert is OUT now. I can't wait! She and Adam and Josh Groban are so brilliant in this lovely musical at the Royal Albert Hall in my gal's CP home of London as a rare lady. CP is less common in other countries. She's a gal who fights. And she's studying Italian in Italy for 10 months. It's required for her to go....unlike here where you choose to go. Nice! Miss Jessi is gonna be da bomb! She's so sweet and we Skype FREE with pal Dawn from Glasgow Scotland too! LOVE THAT!
Duffy and Amy MacDonald Rock! Check out their music because both were released here and Dawn mailed me her copy all the way from the UK. Very special. She and Jessi keep me going when America gets snooty with me....and without them, I'd be passed out on the floor. Michelle Love, Guam may be in the cards. I don't know what the days hold for you dear, but don't give up. Be like me. Don't give up with the wee one on the way because being a mommy will totally rock your life for the better. Meekey and I fight like hell still girl and we couldn't have won this fight without you! Hugs dear!
Jennilyn and Ryan......I am forever grateful to you two for being rocks when the shifting sands sink me low with health things. I'm Not Dead...Just Floating! Gotta keep Going Forward! Chris Reeve is my HERO. I lost most of my Disabled peeps in the last few years and feel so alone now.....but you two stand up and fight with me when all seems out of control. HUGS you guys! Susana may never be 300% again due to Cymbalta deadly reaction in the ER 3 times so far, but she's FIGHTING to LIVE! Refugee by Melissa Etheridge. I don't have to live like a REFUGEE! Indeed!
Doc and staff..... I am not sure just how well I can function on stages for community theater, but I think I can do some small things. We have to wait and see. CP and DID is shot out of a cannon. I am back, but damage to brain, bones, muscles, and such is so bad that my pain and stuff is off the charts! It's up a ton now....and symptom control is so hard.....new fights with new symptoms like bleeding now have me very worried! No cures. It's like AIDS. Scary as Hell. We have more tests scheduled. And I am terrified. CAT scans to look at tissue. MRI scans and Bone scans and density tests from my hysterectomy 15 months ago.
Can Susana survive? Absolutely! But it's going to be VERY different. Noticed the drastic changes in 48 hours when Cymbalta took effect. Withdrawl like Mimi....and the body just said NO way! I feel like a 90 year old and I'm only 33.....and with the medical stuff now upped higher with this deadly mistake, I am horrified. Zero compensation! Wow. I can't stomach that at all guys!
I am not me anymore. It was like the Cymbalta sucked all the stuff out of me! I am looking dried out and such too because I can't get the nutrients to absorb and stay in blood and bones. Scary scary! We are hoping we can at least stablize me again at home. ER is packed! Wow.
Susana is going to keep fighting. People give her Hell, but she knows better. I see Hell as opportunity to keep moving on. Good, and bad. I am WHOLE now.
Much love peeps of the world!
Susana
Dear America,
Let me tell you whom I have become after dealing with you for the past 33 years. This is who I will FOREVER be, so don't you DARE try and CHANGE this WOMAN who FIGHTS to BE HERSELF DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK, SAY, AND DO TO HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This body and mind belong to ME IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here's HER SELF in TECHNICOLOR IDIOT! LIVE WELL ALL THE WAY EMOTIONALLY, BE AN INCURABLE OPTIMIST, I'LL SCREAM LATER, I'LL GO FORWARD, BE BLIND AND STILL SEE, HAVE A LEFT FOOT THAT MAKES ART, BE A THESPIAN DRAG QUEEN, BE GAY AS HELL, WHITE, WEAK, STRONG, AND FUCKING ROCK THE HOUSE WHILE BRINGING IT DOWN WITH THE QUEEN HERSELF.....DANA OWENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm Travelin' Light now!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The details are below you....because YOU NEVER KNEW ME, and NEVER WILL!
Religion: NONE. Atheists don't have BOOKS to FOLLOW RULES and be FUCKED UP by HUMANS who have to DO AS THEY ARE TOLD LIKE THE NAZI CREEPS........and Saddam, And Bin Laden who HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are too rich and wealthy to KNOW what being HUMBLE, POOR, and WEALTHY MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
26 weeks Premature, and STRONGER EVERY FUCKING DAY BECAUSE I SAY SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I take my GOOD I take my BAD put them TOGETHER and THERE YOU HAVE MY FACTS OF LIFE ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CP, DID, Diva, BIATCH, LOVER, FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No real people to count on.....JUST HERSELF because it's not SELFISH to put ME FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talk to the hand....and I'll give Dr. Phil all the notes he needs to WAKE YOU UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Robin, Erica, Maggie, Jay, Jordan, Drs. Stork, Lisa, Jim, Drew......YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oprah, Gayle, Dr. Oz, Suze, Nate.......You GIVE ME LIFE WHEN OTHERS DON'T! Ellen, Fearless Gay Leader......Portia, Momma Betty......Thank you for letting me know that having Cerebral Palsy, DID, and Lesbian life is OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P!nk and Lisa Marie.....Elvis.......Susana Marie is a FOREVER fan! Graceland is my HOME!
Cher, Bette, Celine, Tina love.....CELEBRATE with me! Obama won! Finally! This white gal can DANCE because Cindy Collins can be FREE to be a beautiful Black Woman instead of an Oreo with Susana at age 10 at Kate Bell Ding Dong Elementary Bullied for LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WASTEBURY HIGH SCHOOL. Duh. It's where we could gamble with CRAPS LEGALLY on stage, drink, be drugged, and stupid and then throw cast parties where we could get WASTED on a SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bohemian Life has BEGUN for this CAT who knows HERSELF! This Doll says she doesn't need a GUY to call her DAME, and ANYTHING GOES! Hello Dolly! Working 9-5 fro Sweeney Todd making Pies with Angela Landsbury. Dancing in June Sky with Angelina and Brad, the kids, doing the Moonwalk, loving me just because........who's the best drummer P!nk? US! or as you say boldly......ME! Halla!
Wise Women say......
Only Fools Rush in......
But Susana dear.....
I.....Can't Help......Falling in LOVE with you with NO Conditions!
Susana Kaysen, Lisa Rowe, ladies.....we Do Not have to drop anchor here in this Earthly mess! Obama is proof of that and Dr. King is awed now. We DID it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And yes, Black and White are BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God speed Michael Jackson. Your music lives on in this wee gal who will forever SCREAM and be Dangerous!
And for the rest of you who Don't Get It.......I am REAL! HALLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Susana Has Left The Building with Hollywood to go Get The Party Started Cuz It's Gettin Hot In Here! BOOM BOOM POW! Will I Am and Black Eyed Peas.....Start the BEAT NOW! My Energy NEVER DIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The next 33 years of my life are to be continued yo! Ciao! ^_^
Let me tell you whom I have become after dealing with you for the past 33 years. This is who I will FOREVER be, so don't you DARE try and CHANGE this WOMAN who FIGHTS to BE HERSELF DESPITE WHAT YOU THINK, SAY, AND DO TO HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This body and mind belong to ME IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here's HER SELF in TECHNICOLOR IDIOT! LIVE WELL ALL THE WAY EMOTIONALLY, BE AN INCURABLE OPTIMIST, I'LL SCREAM LATER, I'LL GO FORWARD, BE BLIND AND STILL SEE, HAVE A LEFT FOOT THAT MAKES ART, BE A THESPIAN DRAG QUEEN, BE GAY AS HELL, WHITE, WEAK, STRONG, AND FUCKING ROCK THE HOUSE WHILE BRINGING IT DOWN WITH THE QUEEN HERSELF.....DANA OWENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm Travelin' Light now!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The details are below you....because YOU NEVER KNEW ME, and NEVER WILL!
Religion: NONE. Atheists don't have BOOKS to FOLLOW RULES and be FUCKED UP by HUMANS who have to DO AS THEY ARE TOLD LIKE THE NAZI CREEPS........and Saddam, And Bin Laden who HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are too rich and wealthy to KNOW what being HUMBLE, POOR, and WEALTHY MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
26 weeks Premature, and STRONGER EVERY FUCKING DAY BECAUSE I SAY SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I take my GOOD I take my BAD put them TOGETHER and THERE YOU HAVE MY FACTS OF LIFE ASSHOLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CP, DID, Diva, BIATCH, LOVER, FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No real people to count on.....JUST HERSELF because it's not SELFISH to put ME FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talk to the hand....and I'll give Dr. Phil all the notes he needs to WAKE YOU UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Robin, Erica, Maggie, Jay, Jordan, Drs. Stork, Lisa, Jim, Drew......YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oprah, Gayle, Dr. Oz, Suze, Nate.......You GIVE ME LIFE WHEN OTHERS DON'T! Ellen, Fearless Gay Leader......Portia, Momma Betty......Thank you for letting me know that having Cerebral Palsy, DID, and Lesbian life is OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P!nk and Lisa Marie.....Elvis.......Susana Marie is a FOREVER fan! Graceland is my HOME!
Cher, Bette, Celine, Tina love.....CELEBRATE with me! Obama won! Finally! This white gal can DANCE because Cindy Collins can be FREE to be a beautiful Black Woman instead of an Oreo with Susana at age 10 at Kate Bell Ding Dong Elementary Bullied for LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WASTEBURY HIGH SCHOOL. Duh. It's where we could gamble with CRAPS LEGALLY on stage, drink, be drugged, and stupid and then throw cast parties where we could get WASTED on a SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bohemian Life has BEGUN for this CAT who knows HERSELF! This Doll says she doesn't need a GUY to call her DAME, and ANYTHING GOES! Hello Dolly! Working 9-5 fro Sweeney Todd making Pies with Angela Landsbury. Dancing in June Sky with Angelina and Brad, the kids, doing the Moonwalk, loving me just because........who's the best drummer P!nk? US! or as you say boldly......ME! Halla!
Wise Women say......
Only Fools Rush in......
But Susana dear.....
I.....Can't Help......Falling in LOVE with you with NO Conditions!
Susana Kaysen, Lisa Rowe, ladies.....we Do Not have to drop anchor here in this Earthly mess! Obama is proof of that and Dr. King is awed now. We DID it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And yes, Black and White are BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God speed Michael Jackson. Your music lives on in this wee gal who will forever SCREAM and be Dangerous!
And for the rest of you who Don't Get It.......I am REAL! HALLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Susana Has Left The Building with Hollywood to go Get The Party Started Cuz It's Gettin Hot In Here! BOOM BOOM POW! Will I Am and Black Eyed Peas.....Start the BEAT NOW! My Energy NEVER DIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The next 33 years of my life are to be continued yo! Ciao! ^_^
Friday, June 26, 2009
Scared as all get out today after meeting with new OBGYN. Ordering tests in 6 weeks. *Cries in fear and with tremendus relief after life threatening Cymbalta reaction and 3 trips to St. Luke's Woodlands ER now.* New docs will be OBGYN and Baclofen Pump doctor in Houston TX an hour away. So messy at this time because Pump is not giving me any meds at all, and swelling is massive in arms, legs, back, and torso. OMGoodness....scary as Hell right now. We have NO idea why because the hospital x-ray was inconclusive. Currently taking Oral Baclofen and Flexeril to offset Pump while Tuesday comes next week. Faxed a ton of paperwork today. Not sure if appointment is a go because the folks on the other end are not following through. *Shudders* Could be serious if we need OR stat to ER replace Pump in 3 years vs. 6 in 2012. Next Pump refill due July 21st if we deem this even possible given the Cymbalta caused the Pump to stop the flow of medication in my catheter from the access port. Oy vey!
Clinic is on the ball with OBGYN for Hormone Replacement Therapy. Baclofen Doctor team on standby for Tuesday June 30th at 10 AM in Houston TX. Neurology and Family Practice still in progress. Haven't met them face to face yet, and could pose HUGE problems if we wait to scan brain for lack of vision movement with eyes, lack of visual fields in reading, seeing light and dark, etc. BAD news! CP Physical functioning similar to Spastic Quad CP with SEVERE tightness universally in body. Feel like Mark Massaro and I know he's looking down shaking his head now....this is SO WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Headaches and overall pain shot up to 10 this entire time. Blood Pressure was 158/85 and Pulse 92 before OBGYN re-checked vitals today. No way I am dying for HUMAN RACE. Jesus is on His own there. Heaven and Hell are not my problem anymore. Too exclusive for this gal to even touch. She's going to dance in June Sky among the stars for the rest of her life....Nuff said. Sex. Religion. Politics. Off the radar screen should you choose to judge me and make a stink about me in any way. I mean it folks. This life is CHANGING and you can't have me. In life, or even in death. Lawyer is on call. Will work out things medical and donate body to science when I pass on to June Sky. At least my corpse can be seen for medical knowledge in the ME's office first before heading to the Cadaver Lab. Been there, and appeciate life and death, so get off my back for good, or run with me always. This is All or Nothing and I will not wait and change for you. You don't deserve me. And I don't dserve you. We are even, and I am uttering Wizard Chess Chckmate now. The DID Posse and I have WON the war. Boom Boom Pow. I Believe in my own self love, and I know I can move on without you because I am just too good for you all in the able bodied world you made me live in as a rainbow trout in your mainstreamed goldfish pond.
If you want death.....go talk to OJ, Andrea Yates, and other people I know got the easy way out of their stuff of life. Death penalty is a choice and I am for it in murder cases. You kill, you die. Case closed. You commit suicide, you head to Pergatory. Heaven and Hell are too damn exclusive for my Diva Blood.
Nuff said. Goodbye for now. Kiss my rear end if you think you will ever know this ever changing 26 week preemie who was born on the 26th night of the 11th month of the year 1975 with Angelina Jolie. Tina Turner is my birthday blessing. Don't need a male alpha and male omega to tell me where to stick my butt any longer. I am Seriously moving on, and I Seriously Don't Do Second Best under Grey's Anatomy's wings. And Michael Jackson sang to me today while getting my medical records so for those who think music doesn't save a life......kiss my ass.
Back to DANCE, YOGA, THEATER, and my STORY on LIVE STAGE. Susana: Light And Dark by the amazing Edward Albee, Dr. Sidney Berger, and my Cougar Pride team at University of Houston Main while living in Bates Hall with Norman all the time. Law was across the way. No joke. Down the road is Moody Towers. Ya think? No coincidences here folks. Ciao! Cougars ROAR and WOMEN ROAR because I am SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurricane TIna will be in my radar screen this season because we survived Ike so hey, bring her out here! Duh.......
I am going to SHINE with P!nk and Lisa Marie because Susana Marie is going back to be with Elvis and Amazing Grace with her brother handing her Dos Equis, Pot, Beer, Wine, Gin and Vodka, and The Meth/Ecstay combo Erin Go Braugh LOVES.
Amber Lynn is drunk again. Bottle hugging gal on my heart. No cures for CP/DID combo so back off. My Posse of 20 is in da house for good here. Gotta RAVE on.....and Pole Dance like Somebody's Watching me by Rockwell, and hey, music is FUN!
I'm Cosy in The Rocket now. Blast Off! Susana and The Posse are outta here! <3>
Enjoy Haaven and Hell you all. It's your perogative. I can't do a thing for you. I can only do what I can for me. Responsible, accountable, and Crucified Daily with Tori Amos singing my song to me.
Why do We
Crucify ourseleves with CP/DID
Every Day?
Nothing we do is good enough for you
We Crucify Ourselves for you
Every Day
We are wrapped up in your
CHAINS
Oh oh oh
CHAINS
Oh Oh Oh
Why do we
Crucify Ourselves
Every Day?
And for my idiot rapist and those who think I am still a pathological Liar
Listen to this one by Tori and go jump off a cliff.
Silent All These Years
Followed by Almost Rosy that my new long distance girlfriend sang to me as she stayed in Motor City for all you gay hating discrimiatiting fools who diss me and think the guy who raped me was going to make me his wife and baby momma. Don't you get me by now? Gay, White, CP/DID, Atheist Philosopher, PROUD, and really sick of your crap shoot ways of dealing with me as if I am still a weak six year old who deserves your shit.
YOU have issues too. Savage Inequalities by Jonathan Kozol. Fly a kite and make sure you have your life in perfect order before you ever diss me again. Phone, Internet, Snail Mail, and BS other ways.....get over me.
Take me baby......or LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes I'm Leavin! I'm GONE! RENT ROCKS! Mimi has LIT her CANDLE and Angel is gonna Cover YOU! Booyah. Edward Albee is a GENIOUS which you can't see....80 and STILL the BEST WORLD playwright EVER! My 3 Tall Zoo Story Women Agree that Our American Dream is going to happen when my white Authentic Self takes her Fictional Self and Age and Body/Mind Connection to her new apartment where she owes NO ONE ANYTHING EVER and you don't either with cheap talk, stupid cult actions in the Bible Bad Lands, and crap shoot ideas for my life.
It's my life
It's now or never
Cuz I ain't gonna Live Forever
Might as Well Live while I'm ALIVE
Cuz It's MY LIFE!
C ya!
Susana N' The Posse of 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You Are Not Alone Susana
I am here with you
Foever In your heart
We will never be apart
America you make me want to SCREAM! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moonwalk? YES I CAN! Dance! I'm A THRILLER! Who's BAD? Billie Jean's not my lover. She's just a girl.....who said that I am the one....and the child's not my son!
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and your families and your version of the HUMAN RACE
There are
People DYING
Like ME
And if you care enough for the LIVING
Make this world a better place for YOU and Your PEEPS.
You and Your PEEPS
You And Your PEEPS
Heal the world you live in
Save it for your children
Heal the world YOU live in
Save it for your children
I'm Dangerous and I'm gonna JAM!
Cause I'm Black and White
Life in TECHNICOLOR oh yeah yeah yeah!
Tell me what is HUMAN NATURE?
Gay, Gay...GLBT deserves BETTER
Gay....Gay....This is my TRUE self so thank you
Gay Gay Cause I'm living this way
I'm feeling this way
Oh.....My way..........
Peace! :)
Clinic is on the ball with OBGYN for Hormone Replacement Therapy. Baclofen Doctor team on standby for Tuesday June 30th at 10 AM in Houston TX. Neurology and Family Practice still in progress. Haven't met them face to face yet, and could pose HUGE problems if we wait to scan brain for lack of vision movement with eyes, lack of visual fields in reading, seeing light and dark, etc. BAD news! CP Physical functioning similar to Spastic Quad CP with SEVERE tightness universally in body. Feel like Mark Massaro and I know he's looking down shaking his head now....this is SO WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Headaches and overall pain shot up to 10 this entire time. Blood Pressure was 158/85 and Pulse 92 before OBGYN re-checked vitals today. No way I am dying for HUMAN RACE. Jesus is on His own there. Heaven and Hell are not my problem anymore. Too exclusive for this gal to even touch. She's going to dance in June Sky among the stars for the rest of her life....Nuff said. Sex. Religion. Politics. Off the radar screen should you choose to judge me and make a stink about me in any way. I mean it folks. This life is CHANGING and you can't have me. In life, or even in death. Lawyer is on call. Will work out things medical and donate body to science when I pass on to June Sky. At least my corpse can be seen for medical knowledge in the ME's office first before heading to the Cadaver Lab. Been there, and appeciate life and death, so get off my back for good, or run with me always. This is All or Nothing and I will not wait and change for you. You don't deserve me. And I don't dserve you. We are even, and I am uttering Wizard Chess Chckmate now. The DID Posse and I have WON the war. Boom Boom Pow. I Believe in my own self love, and I know I can move on without you because I am just too good for you all in the able bodied world you made me live in as a rainbow trout in your mainstreamed goldfish pond.
If you want death.....go talk to OJ, Andrea Yates, and other people I know got the easy way out of their stuff of life. Death penalty is a choice and I am for it in murder cases. You kill, you die. Case closed. You commit suicide, you head to Pergatory. Heaven and Hell are too damn exclusive for my Diva Blood.
Nuff said. Goodbye for now. Kiss my rear end if you think you will ever know this ever changing 26 week preemie who was born on the 26th night of the 11th month of the year 1975 with Angelina Jolie. Tina Turner is my birthday blessing. Don't need a male alpha and male omega to tell me where to stick my butt any longer. I am Seriously moving on, and I Seriously Don't Do Second Best under Grey's Anatomy's wings. And Michael Jackson sang to me today while getting my medical records so for those who think music doesn't save a life......kiss my ass.
Back to DANCE, YOGA, THEATER, and my STORY on LIVE STAGE. Susana: Light And Dark by the amazing Edward Albee, Dr. Sidney Berger, and my Cougar Pride team at University of Houston Main while living in Bates Hall with Norman all the time. Law was across the way. No joke. Down the road is Moody Towers. Ya think? No coincidences here folks. Ciao! Cougars ROAR and WOMEN ROAR because I am SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurricane TIna will be in my radar screen this season because we survived Ike so hey, bring her out here! Duh.......
I am going to SHINE with P!nk and Lisa Marie because Susana Marie is going back to be with Elvis and Amazing Grace with her brother handing her Dos Equis, Pot, Beer, Wine, Gin and Vodka, and The Meth/Ecstay combo Erin Go Braugh LOVES.
Amber Lynn is drunk again. Bottle hugging gal on my heart. No cures for CP/DID combo so back off. My Posse of 20 is in da house for good here. Gotta RAVE on.....and Pole Dance like Somebody's Watching me by Rockwell, and hey, music is FUN!
I'm Cosy in The Rocket now. Blast Off! Susana and The Posse are outta here! <3>
Enjoy Haaven and Hell you all. It's your perogative. I can't do a thing for you. I can only do what I can for me. Responsible, accountable, and Crucified Daily with Tori Amos singing my song to me.
Why do We
Crucify ourseleves with CP/DID
Every Day?
Nothing we do is good enough for you
We Crucify Ourselves for you
Every Day
We are wrapped up in your
CHAINS
Oh oh oh
CHAINS
Oh Oh Oh
Why do we
Crucify Ourselves
Every Day?
And for my idiot rapist and those who think I am still a pathological Liar
Listen to this one by Tori and go jump off a cliff.
Silent All These Years
Followed by Almost Rosy that my new long distance girlfriend sang to me as she stayed in Motor City for all you gay hating discrimiatiting fools who diss me and think the guy who raped me was going to make me his wife and baby momma. Don't you get me by now? Gay, White, CP/DID, Atheist Philosopher, PROUD, and really sick of your crap shoot ways of dealing with me as if I am still a weak six year old who deserves your shit.
YOU have issues too. Savage Inequalities by Jonathan Kozol. Fly a kite and make sure you have your life in perfect order before you ever diss me again. Phone, Internet, Snail Mail, and BS other ways.....get over me.
Take me baby......or LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes I'm Leavin! I'm GONE! RENT ROCKS! Mimi has LIT her CANDLE and Angel is gonna Cover YOU! Booyah. Edward Albee is a GENIOUS which you can't see....80 and STILL the BEST WORLD playwright EVER! My 3 Tall Zoo Story Women Agree that Our American Dream is going to happen when my white Authentic Self takes her Fictional Self and Age and Body/Mind Connection to her new apartment where she owes NO ONE ANYTHING EVER and you don't either with cheap talk, stupid cult actions in the Bible Bad Lands, and crap shoot ideas for my life.
It's my life
It's now or never
Cuz I ain't gonna Live Forever
Might as Well Live while I'm ALIVE
Cuz It's MY LIFE!
C ya!
Susana N' The Posse of 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You Are Not Alone Susana
I am here with you
Foever In your heart
We will never be apart
America you make me want to SCREAM! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Moonwalk? YES I CAN! Dance! I'm A THRILLER! Who's BAD? Billie Jean's not my lover. She's just a girl.....who said that I am the one....and the child's not my son!
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and your families and your version of the HUMAN RACE
There are
People DYING
Like ME
And if you care enough for the LIVING
Make this world a better place for YOU and Your PEEPS.
You and Your PEEPS
You And Your PEEPS
Heal the world you live in
Save it for your children
Heal the world YOU live in
Save it for your children
I'm Dangerous and I'm gonna JAM!
Cause I'm Black and White
Life in TECHNICOLOR oh yeah yeah yeah!
Tell me what is HUMAN NATURE?
Gay, Gay...GLBT deserves BETTER
Gay....Gay....This is my TRUE self so thank you
Gay Gay Cause I'm living this way
I'm feeling this way
Oh.....My way..........
Peace! :)
Okay Folks,
If you are or plan on being a PARENT, LISTEN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you think for one seccond Susana Marie May is BLESSED.....to watch her own brother DIE while Mommy and Daddy watched the accident from Highway Six and FUCKING turned off the CELL PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad served in the Army YEARS before me and bro were BORN and FUCKING "Disciplined" us. Yeah right! Psychologists and shit and medications and shit later....HE'S DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am taking his fucking place getting yelled at, blamed, accused of being a BIATCH, hit by my Momma, slammed verbally by Daddy.....and you people sit back and let it PASS YOU BY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK CPS and APS who turned my ass DOWN this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's no case Miss May. You aren't bruised or bleeding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
State Denied me Medicare Disability because of age shit retrictions and the fact that I wasn't "Disabled before age 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Daddy lets it slide. Fucker has no idea the damn appeal is DUE in DALLAS JULY 17th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Meantime, HIS family and friends can fucking talk about me behind my back on phones, to my face, and I can't say shit because his DAUGHTER should not be seen or HEARD at 33 years OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My disabilites got me caught in a shit storm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And HE and his FAMILY think I am WEAK as FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So the friends I fucking made think I'm SHIT too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CALIFORNIA girl fucking texts me and calls me a LIAR about being in the ER, fucking threatens to call PARENTS to ask if my story checks out, and asks why I FUCKING LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Daddy tells me to SHUT UP and NOT SAY ANYTHING because FRIENDS DON'T GIVE A FUCK or SHIT about ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And his WIFE has mental memory issues for over 2 FUCKING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Secrets and Lies MOFOS. And he always says the same shit to my face. If you say anything I will hurt you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah right! Verbal SHIT isn't even in the fucking DSM 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If that ASSHOLE uses verbal shit on me again and tells his WIFE it's okay.....and she lashes out to spank me or grab my arm again......I"ll FUCKING RUN LIKE HELL to the nearest CLOSET room, and FUCKING LOCK THE DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You think you are a parent because you give birth or adopt, and you can destroy us kids who later grow into the same FUCKING ADULTS we SEE every GODDAMNED DAY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Mutiple Births. Fucking Spouse killings with OJ Simpson. Fucking Child Murders with Andrea Yates. FUCK YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE GOING TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not me, not Scott May, not my two nieces..............YOU AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR FREEDOM to INTOXICATE us kiddos STOPS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Welcome to HELL on an 18 Wheeler and I don't give a FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! P!nk and Lisa Marie speak the TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when I have NO VOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chris Reeve and Marlee Matlin do too. Yo.....I'll Scream Later is Marlee's new book!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU PEOPLE who are able bodied and fucking want ME to change while all of YOU stay the FUCKING SAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
New apartment IS MINE. One bed, One bath. FUCK YOU. TX owes me for Cymbalta OD Withdrwal and Daddy watched the shit happen in his fucking house in front of DENIAL FAMILY who FUCK ME UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Brain is DAMAGED now for GOOD. No cures, no causes, other than the slow release pills at 30 MGS each and I took 2 which means I had 60 MGS and FUCKING damaged brain tissue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH. Any fool would read and know Cymbalta is a fucking anti depressant!!!!!!!!!!! Brain Chemicals! HELLO????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those fuckers knew I had CP. They knew I was not okay with the damn scripts, and I ran to the Pharmacy and fucking asked them. They said you'll be FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YX SOCIAL SECURITY PEOPLE ASSHOLES. I'll NEVER get better you idiots!!!!!!!!!!! DUH! CP has NO FUCKING CURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We can't do shit to help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I say we because my Posse of 20 is FUCKED for LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Baclofen Pump is not giving me liquid Baclofen any longer. This is FATAL! I am due for a refill July 21st and if that fails and we need ER surgery to remove the damn pump and shit, I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Muscles are so tight I am on Oral Baclofen and Flexeril to offset the shit! Headaches, overall body aches, bleeding from nose and nail beds, scalp, and MORE. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh please
Remember me
As Someone
Who Wants You To Go To HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Idiot by Lisa Marie Presley!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's by Susana Marie May TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Common Sense and shit people! You need to think before you have kids in any way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU for doing this shit to me and calling it a LOVE and HATE RELATIONSHIP and BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you are or plan on being a PARENT, LISTEN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you think for one seccond Susana Marie May is BLESSED.....to watch her own brother DIE while Mommy and Daddy watched the accident from Highway Six and FUCKING turned off the CELL PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad served in the Army YEARS before me and bro were BORN and FUCKING "Disciplined" us. Yeah right! Psychologists and shit and medications and shit later....HE'S DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am taking his fucking place getting yelled at, blamed, accused of being a BIATCH, hit by my Momma, slammed verbally by Daddy.....and you people sit back and let it PASS YOU BY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK CPS and APS who turned my ass DOWN this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's no case Miss May. You aren't bruised or bleeding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
State Denied me Medicare Disability because of age shit retrictions and the fact that I wasn't "Disabled before age 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Daddy lets it slide. Fucker has no idea the damn appeal is DUE in DALLAS JULY 17th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Meantime, HIS family and friends can fucking talk about me behind my back on phones, to my face, and I can't say shit because his DAUGHTER should not be seen or HEARD at 33 years OLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My disabilites got me caught in a shit storm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And HE and his FAMILY think I am WEAK as FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So the friends I fucking made think I'm SHIT too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CALIFORNIA girl fucking texts me and calls me a LIAR about being in the ER, fucking threatens to call PARENTS to ask if my story checks out, and asks why I FUCKING LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Daddy tells me to SHUT UP and NOT SAY ANYTHING because FRIENDS DON'T GIVE A FUCK or SHIT about ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And his WIFE has mental memory issues for over 2 FUCKING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Secrets and Lies MOFOS. And he always says the same shit to my face. If you say anything I will hurt you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah right! Verbal SHIT isn't even in the fucking DSM 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If that ASSHOLE uses verbal shit on me again and tells his WIFE it's okay.....and she lashes out to spank me or grab my arm again......I"ll FUCKING RUN LIKE HELL to the nearest CLOSET room, and FUCKING LOCK THE DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You think you are a parent because you give birth or adopt, and you can destroy us kids who later grow into the same FUCKING ADULTS we SEE every GODDAMNED DAY???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Mutiple Births. Fucking Spouse killings with OJ Simpson. Fucking Child Murders with Andrea Yates. FUCK YOU TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ARE GOING TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not me, not Scott May, not my two nieces..............YOU AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR FREEDOM to INTOXICATE us kiddos STOPS NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Welcome to HELL on an 18 Wheeler and I don't give a FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! P!nk and Lisa Marie speak the TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when I have NO VOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Chris Reeve and Marlee Matlin do too. Yo.....I'll Scream Later is Marlee's new book!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU PEOPLE who are able bodied and fucking want ME to change while all of YOU stay the FUCKING SAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Got OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
New apartment IS MINE. One bed, One bath. FUCK YOU. TX owes me for Cymbalta OD Withdrwal and Daddy watched the shit happen in his fucking house in front of DENIAL FAMILY who FUCK ME UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Brain is DAMAGED now for GOOD. No cures, no causes, other than the slow release pills at 30 MGS each and I took 2 which means I had 60 MGS and FUCKING damaged brain tissue!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH. Any fool would read and know Cymbalta is a fucking anti depressant!!!!!!!!!!! Brain Chemicals! HELLO????????????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those fuckers knew I had CP. They knew I was not okay with the damn scripts, and I ran to the Pharmacy and fucking asked them. They said you'll be FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YX SOCIAL SECURITY PEOPLE ASSHOLES. I'll NEVER get better you idiots!!!!!!!!!!! DUH! CP has NO FUCKING CURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We can't do shit to help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I say we because my Posse of 20 is FUCKED for LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Baclofen Pump is not giving me liquid Baclofen any longer. This is FATAL! I am due for a refill July 21st and if that fails and we need ER surgery to remove the damn pump and shit, I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Muscles are so tight I am on Oral Baclofen and Flexeril to offset the shit! Headaches, overall body aches, bleeding from nose and nail beds, scalp, and MORE. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh please
Remember me
As Someone
Who Wants You To Go To HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Idiot by Lisa Marie Presley!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's by Susana Marie May TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Common Sense and shit people! You need to think before you have kids in any way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU for doing this shit to me and calling it a LOVE and HATE RELATIONSHIP and BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ciao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Okay.....
In order for you to fully "get me" with gay, white, CP/DID, Woman Power, ups and downs, stupid stuff, good stuff, bad and indifferent stuff, French and Philosophy stuff, foreign languages and mini job time stuff, educational stuff, family and friends stuff, stupid stupid opinions stuff, stupid bullying times stuff from kids in and out of school the first 12 years of her life stuff, and beyond that into university life stuff, rape stuff in 2005 by a 47 year old Hispanic man who was a fool, never got caught, called her for 2 years after the attack, got blocked and kicked to the curb by her alone, fucking disbelief from family and so called fucking friends, death on a stick from classmates to fucking committed suicide in front of her face, sent the damn notes by snail mail to her a day prior to the shit happening......life and death DO MATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And nope, you are Idiots and Stupid Girls if you think she's going to fucking die that same fucking way to PROVE HERSELF to YOU idiots in America and the WORLD who think Americans should be hated. YES INDEED. She HATES all of America. The disabiility BS labels, the Jesus Freak labels, the anti gay anti atheist labels, and YOU call this land FREE??????? Nope. Not from the gal's view. This toxic slime world called EARTH is SLIME BS. Global Warming. Fucking Discrimination because she SEES more than you do. She may be CP/DID and Devil She, but damn.....she SEES what you people CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Both sides of the story. Heads AND Tails. Good AND Evil. LOVE AND HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life.........AND DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Too bad you can't see this the way she always has.....putting her in your boxes and stuff getting this young 26 week preemie to fucking see YOUR view!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As she grew, you fucking told her to GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be MAINSTREAMED. Go be in and out of hospitals, surgery, fucking mental wards, office settings for PT, OT, Speech fucking Pathology, Psychology, Counseling, Psychiatry, medicaions that FRIED her BRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get a fucking LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She owes the WORLD NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she never will ask you for SHIT EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pity? Nope. Stupidity? Nope. Ignorance because you never bothered to READ a SINGLE disability book because your lives mean more to you WITHOUT disabilities that WITH THEM????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? How DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We, her inner Posse of 20 Aternative Personalities WILL indeed see YOU in HELL!!!!!!!!!! The same Hell you condemn her to every single DAY and NIGHT of HER LIFE. Her musical of her life, Susana: Light and Dark, will be full blown on a stage near you. Directed and Produced by Edward Albee, Tyler Perry, Madea, and a shit load of folks you have probably never heard of in your Jesus Freak Bubbles of YOUR life. Narrow minded? Not her, not us. Get OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Read and see the following if you dare judge her again. And while you are at it....keep in mind that Chris Reeve, Dana Reeve, Ray Charles, Scott May, Jade McCrary, Matthew Powell, Mattie Stepanek, Jalyn Dimmitt, Misty Hartman, Amy Light, Chase Rash, Ken McLead, Jonathan from UH dorm days, Jonathan Larson, Montel Williams, Michael J Fox, and the amazingly talented former drug addict who was in a nasty relationship with co star William Hurt while he was into alcohol.....Deaf actress Marlee Matiln are ALL or NOTHING pulling for Susana Marie May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not to mention:
Queen Latifah
Oprah Winfrey
Nate Berkus
Suze Orman
Gayle King
Dr Phil and Robin Mc Graw and family
Dr. Travis Stork and team of The Doctors
Rachel Ray
Ellen De Generes The GAY LEADER who came out before Susana did. Ellen came out Apirl 30 1997. Susana followed her on May 19, 1997 and she is PROUD as HELL to be GAY because it's not about SEX, but LOVE, and she is OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lisa Marie Presley and family
Elvis Presley
P!nk
And MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Deborah Bray Haddock
Sybil (Shirley Mason) and Nan (a true WOMAN who helps Susana and others with DID LIVE WELL when the EARTH turns it's back in IGNORANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
My Left Foot (A BRILLIANT movie about a man with CP who like Susana is an ARTIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Read.....Educate.....Learn.
Girl, Interrupted with Angelina Jolie and the amazing Whoopi Goldberg who plays Valerie. Claymoore is REAL folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Valerie says this to Susana Kaysen as she is played by Winnona Ryder........
"Susana, Do Not Drop Anchor here in this world. You can go on from here and live well. You have plenty of time, plenty to offer, and you can do this. Do not drop anchor here."
So for those who keep beating me up verbally and emotionally, for those who attack me on the Internet, and on the phone, via snail mail and in person because you are toxic and you almost killed me ten days ago while in St. Luke's Woodlands ER with a Blood Pressure Pulse reading of 158/82 Pulse of 92........
YOU will NOT be the REASON I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You will also NOT be the REASON I LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you want to die, DO IT ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't threaten me, family, friends, and your own crappy life because YOU have ISSUES too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU need to get the Hell OUT of MY LIFE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're What You OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RENT 2005 movie. Nuff said folks! Ba da da da da da....Pfft!
It took me all my life
To finally figure out
That I'm not in the mood
To be anything like you
Maybe it's all right
And maybe now
I'll conduct my choir
I'll Figure It Out
Turbulence.......
I went from Grown into a Ball
Evidence
As I lay dying on my floor
Less and Less......and Less
Hey You
You wore me out and now there's nothing left for me to prove
It's oh so true
Imagine That.....
Thanx for Throwing me the line when I lost sight of it
Your the only reason I can exhale
Little Raven......Beautiful Lady
You can be all the writing on my wall
That you want
And I'll be the line across it
And I'll blow your mind
I'll blow your mind
And I'll blow your mind
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
All the others can shine
Oh but not like I
Can Shine
As the snow flies
On a cold and grey November morn
A new little baby child was born
In the Ghetto
She was tiny and bold and stayed in the cold
In The Ghetto
Then one day a family came and rescued her all just the same
Problems came round and she hit the ground running
In The Ghetto
Then 4 years later in '79 a boy came along with his own tiny life
In The Ghetto
He had ADD and She Had CP and DID in The Ghetto
Bullied every single day and led astray by the family and the world
But they stayed together forever and ever even when the boy died on a bike as a passenger out on a joyrde in The Ghetto
It's now been 9 years since that MAN dissappeared from The Ghetto
Wanted to be a Marine in the USA Armed Forces
But he never made it there because he died on the street
In The Ghetto
She got his ID while home alone from 3 young cops standing at the front door in The Ghetto
Today that man is with her deep inside her soul
Handing her Dos Equis, Pot, Cigs and more
In June Sky from up above
In The Ghetto.........
Elvis and Lisa Marie Presely
Amazing Grace from Graceland
Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a bitch like she and Scotty
They were not lost but always found
Were NEVER BLIND and they still see
Halleluyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Harriet Tubman
George Washington Carver
Barak Obama 40 years after Dr. King died
Black Voices Online
And I'm a Super Woman.......yes my life is a mess but I am so blessed with an S on my chest because I'm a Super Woman and I'm Travelin Light. So What if I feel this good Sober??????? The Party has Started Right now!
Try Walking In My Shoes by Depeche Mode too......The Hell life my family describes to this DAY is still TRUE idiots. Deal? or No Deal? You're Hot And Your Cold by Katy Perry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Halla! Imma Diva with Beyonce Cher, Bette, Celine, amd MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bom Boom Pow you like to mess with my style you try to cova my swagga I'm on that next ship now you so 2008 you so 2000 Late, I am gonna move on and keep on Celebratin life and death Will I Am start the beat NOW!
The Energy In Susana Never Dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Booyah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :] :P O.o :)
In order for you to fully "get me" with gay, white, CP/DID, Woman Power, ups and downs, stupid stuff, good stuff, bad and indifferent stuff, French and Philosophy stuff, foreign languages and mini job time stuff, educational stuff, family and friends stuff, stupid stupid opinions stuff, stupid bullying times stuff from kids in and out of school the first 12 years of her life stuff, and beyond that into university life stuff, rape stuff in 2005 by a 47 year old Hispanic man who was a fool, never got caught, called her for 2 years after the attack, got blocked and kicked to the curb by her alone, fucking disbelief from family and so called fucking friends, death on a stick from classmates to fucking committed suicide in front of her face, sent the damn notes by snail mail to her a day prior to the shit happening......life and death DO MATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And nope, you are Idiots and Stupid Girls if you think she's going to fucking die that same fucking way to PROVE HERSELF to YOU idiots in America and the WORLD who think Americans should be hated. YES INDEED. She HATES all of America. The disabiility BS labels, the Jesus Freak labels, the anti gay anti atheist labels, and YOU call this land FREE??????? Nope. Not from the gal's view. This toxic slime world called EARTH is SLIME BS. Global Warming. Fucking Discrimination because she SEES more than you do. She may be CP/DID and Devil She, but damn.....she SEES what you people CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Both sides of the story. Heads AND Tails. Good AND Evil. LOVE AND HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life.........AND DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Too bad you can't see this the way she always has.....putting her in your boxes and stuff getting this young 26 week preemie to fucking see YOUR view!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As she grew, you fucking told her to GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be MAINSTREAMED. Go be in and out of hospitals, surgery, fucking mental wards, office settings for PT, OT, Speech fucking Pathology, Psychology, Counseling, Psychiatry, medicaions that FRIED her BRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get a fucking LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She owes the WORLD NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she never will ask you for SHIT EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pity? Nope. Stupidity? Nope. Ignorance because you never bothered to READ a SINGLE disability book because your lives mean more to you WITHOUT disabilities that WITH THEM????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? How DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We, her inner Posse of 20 Aternative Personalities WILL indeed see YOU in HELL!!!!!!!!!! The same Hell you condemn her to every single DAY and NIGHT of HER LIFE. Her musical of her life, Susana: Light and Dark, will be full blown on a stage near you. Directed and Produced by Edward Albee, Tyler Perry, Madea, and a shit load of folks you have probably never heard of in your Jesus Freak Bubbles of YOUR life. Narrow minded? Not her, not us. Get OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Read and see the following if you dare judge her again. And while you are at it....keep in mind that Chris Reeve, Dana Reeve, Ray Charles, Scott May, Jade McCrary, Matthew Powell, Mattie Stepanek, Jalyn Dimmitt, Misty Hartman, Amy Light, Chase Rash, Ken McLead, Jonathan from UH dorm days, Jonathan Larson, Montel Williams, Michael J Fox, and the amazingly talented former drug addict who was in a nasty relationship with co star William Hurt while he was into alcohol.....Deaf actress Marlee Matiln are ALL or NOTHING pulling for Susana Marie May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not to mention:
Queen Latifah
Oprah Winfrey
Nate Berkus
Suze Orman
Gayle King
Dr Phil and Robin Mc Graw and family
Dr. Travis Stork and team of The Doctors
Rachel Ray
Ellen De Generes The GAY LEADER who came out before Susana did. Ellen came out Apirl 30 1997. Susana followed her on May 19, 1997 and she is PROUD as HELL to be GAY because it's not about SEX, but LOVE, and she is OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lisa Marie Presley and family
Elvis Presley
P!nk
And MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Deborah Bray Haddock
Sybil (Shirley Mason) and Nan (a true WOMAN who helps Susana and others with DID LIVE WELL when the EARTH turns it's back in IGNORANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
My Left Foot (A BRILLIANT movie about a man with CP who like Susana is an ARTIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Read.....Educate.....Learn.
Girl, Interrupted with Angelina Jolie and the amazing Whoopi Goldberg who plays Valerie. Claymoore is REAL folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Valerie says this to Susana Kaysen as she is played by Winnona Ryder........
"Susana, Do Not Drop Anchor here in this world. You can go on from here and live well. You have plenty of time, plenty to offer, and you can do this. Do not drop anchor here."
So for those who keep beating me up verbally and emotionally, for those who attack me on the Internet, and on the phone, via snail mail and in person because you are toxic and you almost killed me ten days ago while in St. Luke's Woodlands ER with a Blood Pressure Pulse reading of 158/82 Pulse of 92........
YOU will NOT be the REASON I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You will also NOT be the REASON I LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you want to die, DO IT ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't threaten me, family, friends, and your own crappy life because YOU have ISSUES too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU need to get the Hell OUT of MY LIFE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're What You OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RENT 2005 movie. Nuff said folks! Ba da da da da da....Pfft!
It took me all my life
To finally figure out
That I'm not in the mood
To be anything like you
Maybe it's all right
And maybe now
I'll conduct my choir
I'll Figure It Out
Turbulence.......
I went from Grown into a Ball
Evidence
As I lay dying on my floor
Less and Less......and Less
Hey You
You wore me out and now there's nothing left for me to prove
It's oh so true
Imagine That.....
Thanx for Throwing me the line when I lost sight of it
Your the only reason I can exhale
Little Raven......Beautiful Lady
You can be all the writing on my wall
That you want
And I'll be the line across it
And I'll blow your mind
I'll blow your mind
And I'll blow your mind
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
All the others can shine
Oh but not like I
Can Shine
As the snow flies
On a cold and grey November morn
A new little baby child was born
In the Ghetto
She was tiny and bold and stayed in the cold
In The Ghetto
Then one day a family came and rescued her all just the same
Problems came round and she hit the ground running
In The Ghetto
Then 4 years later in '79 a boy came along with his own tiny life
In The Ghetto
He had ADD and She Had CP and DID in The Ghetto
Bullied every single day and led astray by the family and the world
But they stayed together forever and ever even when the boy died on a bike as a passenger out on a joyrde in The Ghetto
It's now been 9 years since that MAN dissappeared from The Ghetto
Wanted to be a Marine in the USA Armed Forces
But he never made it there because he died on the street
In The Ghetto
She got his ID while home alone from 3 young cops standing at the front door in The Ghetto
Today that man is with her deep inside her soul
Handing her Dos Equis, Pot, Cigs and more
In June Sky from up above
In The Ghetto.........
Elvis and Lisa Marie Presely
Amazing Grace from Graceland
Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a bitch like she and Scotty
They were not lost but always found
Were NEVER BLIND and they still see
Halleluyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Harriet Tubman
George Washington Carver
Barak Obama 40 years after Dr. King died
Black Voices Online
And I'm a Super Woman.......yes my life is a mess but I am so blessed with an S on my chest because I'm a Super Woman and I'm Travelin Light. So What if I feel this good Sober??????? The Party has Started Right now!
Try Walking In My Shoes by Depeche Mode too......The Hell life my family describes to this DAY is still TRUE idiots. Deal? or No Deal? You're Hot And Your Cold by Katy Perry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Halla! Imma Diva with Beyonce Cher, Bette, Celine, amd MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bom Boom Pow you like to mess with my style you try to cova my swagga I'm on that next ship now you so 2008 you so 2000 Late, I am gonna move on and keep on Celebratin life and death Will I Am start the beat NOW!
The Energy In Susana Never Dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Booyah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :] :P O.o :)
Dear Divided States of America,
Since you obviously enjoy screwing with a young woman who is white, disabled, gay, and single, a rape victim, a fucked up family member with absolutely no friends to count on, and stupid Jesus Freak people who insist she needs to be Saved and Delivered, let me respond to your shit. Sex....GAY. Religion: ATHEIST. Politics: MEN and WOMEN who make SENSE in DEBATES, CAMPAIGNS and MOVE to THE WHITE HOUSE with BLACK, HISPANIC, and ASIAN ROOTS. Fuck the KKK.......I HATE being WHITE. DISCRIMINATION SUCKS.
Medicaid SUCKS. And while I am at it.....THE BIBLE is SHIT!!!!!!!!!!
Demon Spawn 4 at your SERVICE. I am quoting Witches of Eastwick, because Diva Cher and I know you and Jack and Angelina Jolie quite well. We ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know America, I really appreciate your directness and now I'm going to be as direct and honest iwth you as I possibly can be:
You Are:
Physically Repulsive
Intellectually Retarded
Morally Reprehensible
Vulgar
Insenstive
Selfish
Stupid
You have NO taste
A Lousy Sense of Humor
And you smell!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey Susana, Do You Like Fish?
Absolutely! Sushi and Salmon BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C ya! :) :X :} :( :P O.o ^_^
Since you obviously enjoy screwing with a young woman who is white, disabled, gay, and single, a rape victim, a fucked up family member with absolutely no friends to count on, and stupid Jesus Freak people who insist she needs to be Saved and Delivered, let me respond to your shit. Sex....GAY. Religion: ATHEIST. Politics: MEN and WOMEN who make SENSE in DEBATES, CAMPAIGNS and MOVE to THE WHITE HOUSE with BLACK, HISPANIC, and ASIAN ROOTS. Fuck the KKK.......I HATE being WHITE. DISCRIMINATION SUCKS.
Medicaid SUCKS. And while I am at it.....THE BIBLE is SHIT!!!!!!!!!!
Demon Spawn 4 at your SERVICE. I am quoting Witches of Eastwick, because Diva Cher and I know you and Jack and Angelina Jolie quite well. We ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know America, I really appreciate your directness and now I'm going to be as direct and honest iwth you as I possibly can be:
You Are:
Physically Repulsive
Intellectually Retarded
Morally Reprehensible
Vulgar
Insenstive
Selfish
Stupid
You have NO taste
A Lousy Sense of Humor
And you smell!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey Susana, Do You Like Fish?
Absolutely! Sushi and Salmon BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C ya! :) :X :} :( :P O.o ^_^
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Keith and I are at it again. It's me, Melissa Renee, wife of the body, Susana. We wed October 10, 1993 WAY before Prop 8 was deemed "not consitutional and shizz" Um....whatever....Susana is my WIFE. My red lips and red chapstick DO mean something....because I kiss my girl and I really LIKE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My Green Eyes say more to her CP and DID self than ever! Ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!!!! And yeah....my Flaming Red Lesbian Hair speaks volumes for Hair, BIlly Elliott, and DANCE with people on Theater stages from University Of Houston when my gal DANCED to Seasons of Love from RENT, did a ton of monologues based on Eddie Izzard, acted in plays and shorts all the way from Paris with famed Director Guy Pierre Couleau and his Wife Anne!!!!!!!!!!!! Bust a cap in our asses, and we will FIGHT YOU BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Theater.......Theatre......Straight Plays, Musicals, Edward Albee inspired works from my lovely wife who writes for FUN and doesn't give a shit about MONEY! Hello Community Theatre. Act, Dance, Sing, Change Costumes, the WORKS and yeah, Susana can BEAT Cher's costume changing record by about 30 seconds with her Diva self and a little stage managing help! Boom! Has turning 30 always sucked? I need about a half pound bag of M&MS.....Peanut Please! BOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No Day But Today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RENT RENT RENT RENT RENT........We're not gonna pay......Last Year's RENT......Cause Everything is RENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
iPod is on, fans, and heating pads help adjust temperatures with Menopause Full Hysterectomy shizz and all the home stuff helps. Better than 10 hours in the ER in one day yo! Whatever works for my lovely wife. All 20 of us are in this game and Chess is getting really wild, but FUN! Check! Halla! Keith is ER doctor by day, NYC cop by night, with his four peeps on the beat. Vince, Stephen, Brandon, and B-Man's Wife, Erin Elizabeth Mahoney. Erin Go Braugh is addicted to drugs. Meth, Ecstasy, and more. Only the street shizz. We don't mix the shizz like stupid young girls on MySpace and Facebook. Ha ha ha....and we don't post nude pictures or do STUPID shizzz that gets the Posse or Susana in TROUBLE. Stupid people deserve to die for stuff like that. My ER with Keith is FULL of Idiots! It used to be a Funhouse....But now it's full of Evil Clowns, who this that mixing dru....ugs.....will suddenly stop the countdown! Ha ha ha ha!
Amber Lynn is a pleasure bottle hugging drunk who knows her shizz too. No beer ever. Yuck! We go for Bill Cosby Himself and Follow his Lead. Duh. Watch the DVD from Amazon. Get a hint or two....LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Raggedy Burbon Drunk. Gin Drunk, Gin and Vodka, Wine-Os, and the Beer fellas are the guys of The Posse. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Something happens to their hearing......Heeeey! All RIIIIGHT! We rode the Bull at Chili's and busted our Faces! Yahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then we got sick by the toilet bowl where Eddie discusses Lenny Bruce who died by the same toilet yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dress to Kill.....Watch! Chris Rock: Never Scared. DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We ain't scared of LIFE, DEATH, or SOUL DANCING! Ha! :P :} :] :( :P O.o We Always Feel Like Somebody's Watching ME.....Peeps from June Sky....Foxfire Girl Gang w/Angelina Jolie Legs. Ha ha ha! Bust a move now Earthly Humans who Don't Get us! For those who do.....Welcome! Care to join in World and Universe? Ha ha ha ha! Come on board to see all! CP DID has no cause, cures, or shit that the world claims....We Just Dance, And We're gonna be OKAY with white skin, blue eyes, brown hair, CP/DID combo, GAY as HELL with Lesbian Lovers! And we like the way we WALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She walks like a duck, quacks like a duck...But She Ain't No Duck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's HUMAN and she's Good! Perfectly Imperfect! DIVA BIACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome! You are no longer a part of her 99 Problems, and this Biatch ain't one for you neither! Lily Allen said it and we know this.....People of Earth who claims this woman is Bullshit from Matthew McConohey.....She is NOT Bullshit. She is WOMAN....Right Down The Line.....She's a SUPERWOMAN, Travelin Light, Party with P!nk, Lisa Marie Presley, and MORE, while being her true inner DIVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cher, Bette, Beyonce, Celine.....and the list goes ON FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eddie Izzard: I Am The Pope at the Head of the Church....I'm here in the Vatican! Um.....Ciao! :P :] :)
Theater.......Theatre......Straight Plays, Musicals, Edward Albee inspired works from my lovely wife who writes for FUN and doesn't give a shit about MONEY! Hello Community Theatre. Act, Dance, Sing, Change Costumes, the WORKS and yeah, Susana can BEAT Cher's costume changing record by about 30 seconds with her Diva self and a little stage managing help! Boom! Has turning 30 always sucked? I need about a half pound bag of M&MS.....Peanut Please! BOOOOOOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No Day But Today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RENT RENT RENT RENT RENT........We're not gonna pay......Last Year's RENT......Cause Everything is RENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
iPod is on, fans, and heating pads help adjust temperatures with Menopause Full Hysterectomy shizz and all the home stuff helps. Better than 10 hours in the ER in one day yo! Whatever works for my lovely wife. All 20 of us are in this game and Chess is getting really wild, but FUN! Check! Halla! Keith is ER doctor by day, NYC cop by night, with his four peeps on the beat. Vince, Stephen, Brandon, and B-Man's Wife, Erin Elizabeth Mahoney. Erin Go Braugh is addicted to drugs. Meth, Ecstasy, and more. Only the street shizz. We don't mix the shizz like stupid young girls on MySpace and Facebook. Ha ha ha....and we don't post nude pictures or do STUPID shizzz that gets the Posse or Susana in TROUBLE. Stupid people deserve to die for stuff like that. My ER with Keith is FULL of Idiots! It used to be a Funhouse....But now it's full of Evil Clowns, who this that mixing dru....ugs.....will suddenly stop the countdown! Ha ha ha ha!
Amber Lynn is a pleasure bottle hugging drunk who knows her shizz too. No beer ever. Yuck! We go for Bill Cosby Himself and Follow his Lead. Duh. Watch the DVD from Amazon. Get a hint or two....LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Raggedy Burbon Drunk. Gin Drunk, Gin and Vodka, Wine-Os, and the Beer fellas are the guys of The Posse. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Something happens to their hearing......Heeeey! All RIIIIGHT! We rode the Bull at Chili's and busted our Faces! Yahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then we got sick by the toilet bowl where Eddie discusses Lenny Bruce who died by the same toilet yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dress to Kill.....Watch! Chris Rock: Never Scared. DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We ain't scared of LIFE, DEATH, or SOUL DANCING! Ha! :P :} :] :( :P O.o We Always Feel Like Somebody's Watching ME.....Peeps from June Sky....Foxfire Girl Gang w/Angelina Jolie Legs. Ha ha ha! Bust a move now Earthly Humans who Don't Get us! For those who do.....Welcome! Care to join in World and Universe? Ha ha ha ha! Come on board to see all! CP DID has no cause, cures, or shit that the world claims....We Just Dance, And We're gonna be OKAY with white skin, blue eyes, brown hair, CP/DID combo, GAY as HELL with Lesbian Lovers! And we like the way we WALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She walks like a duck, quacks like a duck...But She Ain't No Duck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She's HUMAN and she's Good! Perfectly Imperfect! DIVA BIACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome! You are no longer a part of her 99 Problems, and this Biatch ain't one for you neither! Lily Allen said it and we know this.....People of Earth who claims this woman is Bullshit from Matthew McConohey.....She is NOT Bullshit. She is WOMAN....Right Down The Line.....She's a SUPERWOMAN, Travelin Light, Party with P!nk, Lisa Marie Presley, and MORE, while being her true inner DIVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cher, Bette, Beyonce, Celine.....and the list goes ON FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eddie Izzard: I Am The Pope at the Head of the Church....I'm here in the Vatican! Um.....Ciao! :P :] :)
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
My Baclofen Pump has stopped working too fast. We are doing Oral Baclofen from St. Luke's Episcopal Hospial in The Woodlands outpatient basis only. Seeing a new doctor June 30! GAWD. Pump is "working' but the drug is not getting to me. They think the catheter where the drug flows is stuck and backing up somewhere, we just don't know how the hell this happened! Shit! Blacked out yesterday! Made peace with Anatomy Class and Life, Death, and all else. If you want to stay in this game, you have very little time. I'm all the way in yo. Chess is ON. And so far, we are still moving around the board. Hoping to Say Yes I Can SCREAM LATER and CHECKMATE so I can win this thing. But death and life do NOT scare this Diva! Cher, Bette Midler, Beyonce, Celine, and so many more! God help me. I can use them to keep vitals down, but dude. Oral Baclofen and Flexeril as Backup. I never thought I would be at this point, but well, I am so hey, FIGHT is ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This tiger in Zoo Story is here! Halla!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I Got 99 Problems but this EARTH full of HUMANS ain't ONE. It's me, Hollywood music and movies, TV, and the animals of EARTH. Ciao! Come see me if you want. Up to you. But you and I know we have no clue when our last day will be, so I LOVE YOU ALL! Said this to the parents a million times! Family too! Damn. Susana is outta here yo. If you choose to wait for my funeral to hit, but still support me, I'm all over that. Hey, we do what we can yo! Love that since this IS INDEED MY BEST LIFE! BOOM Broadway and LIFE! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :P :}
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Today is World Refugee Day. Brad, Angelina, Me, and Melissa Etheridge are so IN!!!!!!!!!! After Katrina and Ike....why the hell not ya know???????????????? What goes around for this gal at death's door twice this week as of last night with the Pump alarm going off from 3-6 AM......Hell I am going to donate to the causes, Refugees, Hurricanes and Nature's Wrath, Animals, and Kiddos! Halla! They don't call me Diva Humanitarian for NOTHING with my CP style, swagga, Theater, Gay, White Woman Power. Boom yo!
Cause baby we don't have to live like a Refugee!
We don't have to live like we're Refugees!
We don't have....to live like we're Refugees!
Oh oh oh YEAH! Melissa strums rock guitar and Suz jamz on her DRUM SET from ANGEL the Drag Queen from RENT 2005! Yeah baby!
Cheers! :)
Cause baby we don't have to live like a Refugee!
We don't have to live like we're Refugees!
We don't have....to live like we're Refugees!
Oh oh oh YEAH! Melissa strums rock guitar and Suz jamz on her DRUM SET from ANGEL the Drag Queen from RENT 2005! Yeah baby!
Cheers! :)
Foxfire Conversations With The Girl Gang:
Legs: So I hear you got suspended in the St. Luke's Woodlands ER at 6 AM this morning for a pump alarm malfuncion and your head came up with an idea to keep moving as we all Go Forward as Incurable Optimists who Live Well All The Way and I'll Scream Later with Marlee And Me. *Grin*
Susana And Maddy: Yeah, I got suspended with my plan all right......For Thinking For Myself.
Legs played by Angelina Jolie, Summer of Susana's year....1975. Gia, Lisa Rowe, Legs. So far, so good. Well then.....Cheers. Don't be scared. You can love me any way you want to Susana. Here's your tatoo of Fire. Because it Nourishes. It also Destroys if you don't respect it. *Gentle Embrace*
Legs: So I hear you got suspended in the St. Luke's Woodlands ER at 6 AM this morning for a pump alarm malfuncion and your head came up with an idea to keep moving as we all Go Forward as Incurable Optimists who Live Well All The Way and I'll Scream Later with Marlee And Me. *Grin*
Susana And Maddy: Yeah, I got suspended with my plan all right......For Thinking For Myself.
Legs played by Angelina Jolie, Summer of Susana's year....1975. Gia, Lisa Rowe, Legs. So far, so good. Well then.....Cheers. Don't be scared. You can love me any way you want to Susana. Here's your tatoo of Fire. Because it Nourishes. It also Destroys if you don't respect it. *Gentle Embrace*
Saturday, June 20, 2009
I am preparing for a long road ahead in Life and Death after the ER stat Monday here. St. Luke's is here. Medicaid is just simply too slow, so the hospital is on standby because my CP Baclofen Pump is not working well enough to sustain me. June 30th is far off and OTC sleep pills are my way to cope for now, but I know home health is dropping and the 6 God Council is ready to bring me home should this be the final call for Lead Me On Train With The Golden Star to take me home. I want to live to be 90 and in Excellent CP form, but Susana and her DID Posse know we are ready for Spike In Virgo from Foxfire should Angelina and Tina, Touched By An Angel and all of Hollywood be here to help us come home to be with Disabled people there who love us down here all the way.
See you tomorrow. Off to relax, stablize, and sleep well. Susana Loves & Cherishes you all very very much. Each day gives her a new chance to Live Her Best Life, Be SImply The Best on November 26th with TIna, And Love Hollywood just as much!
The Yes I CAN mantra is strong. Real. And she's going to go to June Sky with all the glory she can when the time comes. See you all tomorrow friends. I love you.
Susana Marie May N Her DID Posse of 20.....Exits Stage Right with Cast of RENT from The University of Houston School Of Theater family she has loved from day one. Class of 1998-2002. NCIS CSI NY, Big Bang Theory, and more. Grey's How To Save This Life.....Letting Go is sometimes the best thing to do with Toxic people to hold on to me and my life. Jesus was right. Sacrifice and Crucify by Tori Amos and all of Hollywood does mean something because now....Susana can come home again......and she's able to Just Dance and She's Gonna Be Okay!
Love you all!
Susana The Diva of Life! :]
See you tomorrow. Off to relax, stablize, and sleep well. Susana Loves & Cherishes you all very very much. Each day gives her a new chance to Live Her Best Life, Be SImply The Best on November 26th with TIna, And Love Hollywood just as much!
The Yes I CAN mantra is strong. Real. And she's going to go to June Sky with all the glory she can when the time comes. See you all tomorrow friends. I love you.
Susana Marie May N Her DID Posse of 20.....Exits Stage Right with Cast of RENT from The University of Houston School Of Theater family she has loved from day one. Class of 1998-2002. NCIS CSI NY, Big Bang Theory, and more. Grey's How To Save This Life.....Letting Go is sometimes the best thing to do with Toxic people to hold on to me and my life. Jesus was right. Sacrifice and Crucify by Tori Amos and all of Hollywood does mean something because now....Susana can come home again......and she's able to Just Dance and She's Gonna Be Okay!
Love you all!
Susana The Diva of Life! :]
LMP And P!nk. Elvis in Graceland...Oh Hell Yeah baby! We are going to Jam all day and Night. Now What CD, Shine! My song baby! Listen! Elvis and his Best Works cuz he loves me too! Halla! In The Ghetto w/ Lisa Marie and Susana Marie.....Rolling the Dice in Craps for me, winning! Rock the Boat? Nope. Ba da da da da da....Pfft! C ya! Mess with us, and we will Kick Your ASS!
I Kiss My Girls And I Know I Like It cuz it's okay to Be Hot And Cold, Gamble, Lose, Win, Be Lost, Be HUMAN, WHOLE, and BE ME! Drums in progress to the beat of her own DRUM.
Ciao. Eddie Izzard is NEXT in Dress To KILL yo! Halla! :0) :} :]
I Kiss My Girls And I Know I Like It cuz it's okay to Be Hot And Cold, Gamble, Lose, Win, Be Lost, Be HUMAN, WHOLE, and BE ME! Drums in progress to the beat of her own DRUM.
Ciao. Eddie Izzard is NEXT in Dress To KILL yo! Halla! :0) :} :]
Okay 6 Gods Council....Roll Call.....God 47 Year Old Black Lady. Yes. Jesus Christ The Messaiah with absolutely No BS for Susana to face or Death Will Come Get her and take her to Safety to Dance in June Sky with her brother Scott and her disabled Peeps. Spina Bifida, ADD, CP, MS, MD, AIDS, Parkinson's, Blind, Deaf, DID, and the mixes therein.....YES. Satan the Beautiful Fallen Angel From John Milton's Paradise Lost, Joyce Carol Oates' Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been, Genesis Snake Eyes and Revelation with 333 and 666? Bwa ha ha.....BOOM!!!!!!! Pitchforks, Blowtorches, Branding Irons, Fire, Lava Pools, Poles, Clear Heels, Lesbians, Gays, and Those Who Fuck Them up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hereby RELEASE Susana's Soul to June Sky for Badmitton with me and Jesus. Jack Nicholson and Angelina Jolie will stand guard over her soul so that no one on Earth and in my afterlife can touch her EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Doctors, Professionals, Friends, and Family.....if you dare mess with my Fallen Angel, I will unleash the Grudges on you, Edward Albee on you, RENT on you, and make you wish you hadn't touched my Diva! Oh and dig it.....any disses for her or others she cares about in good and bad times will feel my WRATH! Bwa ha ha! Me, Freddy, and Jason will see to that shit. Don't mess with the She Devil Who is Proud to Wear Her Goth Prada and Clear Heels on her Pole Dancing life line. Fuck you! Okay Miss Cleo....Remove the toxic relationships please. Baliff! These folks are GUILTY of messing with Susana's Delicate Balance, Her Three Tall Women, Her American Dream, Her Sandbox, Her Death of Bessie Smith, Her At Home At The Zoo Story, Her Sybil Life, Her Gay Life, Her Perfectly Imperfect Disabled White Woman Life because She Stands to be Brave like you people will never see!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too bad. Her SOUL ain't for SALE!
Buddah...Allah...Zeus and Athena! Check! Let's DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Buddah...Allah...Zeus and Athena! Check! Let's DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Very difficult day and days ahead.....Cerebral Palsy/Dissociative Identity Disorder combo since birth. Menopause since March 3, 2008 after full hysteectomy. Severe Chronic Pain, Neuopathy, and Mood Swings. Night sweats, day sweats, hot flashes, horrible brain empty-ness like a deflated balloon w/highs and lows very severe. Highs for 5 minutes. 2 minutes later...drastic lows. Energy plummets. Sleep deprivation on 1-10 scale at a 10 for over 12 months. Living w/ parents who are almost 70 years of age now. I'm 33. Not a good mix. I'm single, no kids. Scary adult interactions w/all family, friends, etc. Kids-calm days and nights. Just good to have me time and play time. Just observations about stuff.
Current treatments today w/new Medicaid doctors in first ever office visits.
Cymbalta: 30 MGS 1xd for pain, moods, stabilization of neuropathic pain.
Estradiol HRT Bioidenticals for Menopause in cream form
Doing okay for today. Not sure what is to come...but I feel good because of music, TV, working on communicating better w/people, seeing Dr. Phil and Robin holding my hands walking up the hill of life with me.....thank you both so much for being with me all through books and your show and The Drs. too! God bless you all and Drs. Stork, Dr. Lisa, Dr. Jim, and Dr. Drew. Hugs hugs hugs!
Peace! :)
Current treatments today w/new Medicaid doctors in first ever office visits.
Cymbalta: 30 MGS 1xd for pain, moods, stabilization of neuropathic pain.
Estradiol HRT Bioidenticals for Menopause in cream form
Doing okay for today. Not sure what is to come...but I feel good because of music, TV, working on communicating better w/people, seeing Dr. Phil and Robin holding my hands walking up the hill of life with me.....thank you both so much for being with me all through books and your show and The Drs. too! God bless you all and Drs. Stork, Dr. Lisa, Dr. Jim, and Dr. Drew. Hugs hugs hugs!
Peace! :)
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Post for Suze.....Financial Plan for end of 2009....
Here's the scoop based on what I have, and your book so far....Plan of Action is still in Progress but lack of honesty w/family, and bank, and apartment complex has me wondering if the lack thereof could pose problems for an end of the year move in date. Please know I am so grateful to you that it will be Mannah From Heaven if I can really and truly....HONESTLY do this.
Fixed income. SSI Disability payments once a month that should total $674.00 Per month on the 1st of each month. Law in TX says that this is the max for an individual payment. Being disabled is probably a factor too.....don't really know all the details even with the paperwork in my hands. No legal aid either. I can't find a single specialist in Houston area to guide me at all, and it's sending red flags up my spine.
I have 2 accounts. Checking and Savings with Wells Fargo Bank, FDIC insured. No problems. No Credit or cards at all. Checkbook, check card, cash for now. I can apply for credit in summer of 2012 after 5 years of building up the accounts, making the full payments here, and paying other bills in the new apartment.
All expenses are as follows:
SSI Max payments: $674.00
****The rent and deposit are determined like this*******
There is a $44.00 difference between the two. It stands at this:
Rent is 30% of Gross Income.
Deposit is $44.00 Difference from the Rent
Deposit when math is done will be $202.20
Rent each month when math is done will be $158.20
All other expenses including the rent are approximately $630.00
So far, money is not the key issue;. Or so I thought, till I did some online and other types of digging with a fellow college grad and dorm buddy who knows dollars, and the honesty down pat. He's no where near my apartment, but in brief said the Credit issue should be okay....IF I need it at all in summer of 2012 for expenses regarding checks, debit card. Cash is a no no because as a woman, if that disappears, whoops! Better to go with the Checks and Debit card for now to be smart with the moeny than not smart.
Savings account numbers look like this:
Started out putting $25 per month in.
Upped that number to $30 per month
Also got other money to put into savings. $53.87 Refund checks AND $250.00 for Disability SSI citizens from President Obama. Voting for him was the best thing I have ever done. In the past, it's never gone my way. Every cantidate I voted for LOST.
He WON. It's a gamble now with the economy, SSI and Medicaid too. I am not in dire straits but who knows what will happen when I appeal another medical expense denial from TX and Austin. Red tape? Absolutely! I have The Audacity of Hope in me, and YES I CAN accomplish this. HONESTY is going to pull me through!
This month I plan to put in an additional $30 into savings. Max amount for both Checking and Savings can only be $2.000. I see this as a bright spot. Here's why. I currently have over $600.00 in Savings ($652.16) and over $800 ($845.00) in checking with bills paid for the month of June. Can I stash at least $60 per month in savings till the end of 2009 and still do this move?
Apartment is nice. 1 bed, 1 bath. 610 square feet. Included are water, trash, sewer! Other bills can be negotiated given it's just me, no pets, or other occupants. Can Susana May afford the new apartment Miss Suze The Financial Action Planner Orman??????
Transportation is covered by the county door to door. Gas is Government Grants. Medical is under Medicaid (Star Plus HMO type plan) and out of pocket till we get me on Medicare Disability after a (I hope I don't need to be in court date) time in which the entire cost of transport etc. is covered by Medicare. Going with TX Healthspring that my folks have....if the state grants it.
Cerebral Palsy. Dissociative Identity Disorder. Moderate. I walk. BA in French in Houston. No problems there. Family and friends are in denial about this stuff.....but it's my life so here I go. 33 years old. Susana has no excuses as to frivolus why nots? because I don't know from others won't cut the mustard with me at this point. I'm stepping out of the box....Way out.
Just thought you could use some background information for the sake of the honesty factor. Ahem....Honesty is always my policy, even when I mess up. What human woman doesn't do that? We all mess up from time to time and the consequences are not dire yet....but boy, I am going to roll with this, and hope for the best. Cheers to you Suze. Approved, Denied.....Life will go on.
Move in date to be determined with full to capacity in the units. I'm guessing I'll be in November, December, or January of 2010 when the wait list factor says we have a unit ready for you. Come on in Susana.
Can Susana afford the new apartment? Thank you Suze for taking the time to comb this and lend me a hand honestly. God bless!
Sincerely,
Susana 33 year old Spring (Houston TX area) fan who has 2 of your books! Oprah, Dr. OZ, Dr. Phil, Dr. Stork, you, Nate Berkus. You all are my angels in waiting! And the memberships for message boards are in my corner too for viewer discussions. I think I'm going to be okay. :)
Here's the scoop based on what I have, and your book so far....Plan of Action is still in Progress but lack of honesty w/family, and bank, and apartment complex has me wondering if the lack thereof could pose problems for an end of the year move in date. Please know I am so grateful to you that it will be Mannah From Heaven if I can really and truly....HONESTLY do this.
Fixed income. SSI Disability payments once a month that should total $674.00 Per month on the 1st of each month. Law in TX says that this is the max for an individual payment. Being disabled is probably a factor too.....don't really know all the details even with the paperwork in my hands. No legal aid either. I can't find a single specialist in Houston area to guide me at all, and it's sending red flags up my spine.
I have 2 accounts. Checking and Savings with Wells Fargo Bank, FDIC insured. No problems. No Credit or cards at all. Checkbook, check card, cash for now. I can apply for credit in summer of 2012 after 5 years of building up the accounts, making the full payments here, and paying other bills in the new apartment.
All expenses are as follows:
SSI Max payments: $674.00
****The rent and deposit are determined like this*******
There is a $44.00 difference between the two. It stands at this:
Rent is 30% of Gross Income.
Deposit is $44.00 Difference from the Rent
Deposit when math is done will be $202.20
Rent each month when math is done will be $158.20
All other expenses including the rent are approximately $630.00
So far, money is not the key issue;. Or so I thought, till I did some online and other types of digging with a fellow college grad and dorm buddy who knows dollars, and the honesty down pat. He's no where near my apartment, but in brief said the Credit issue should be okay....IF I need it at all in summer of 2012 for expenses regarding checks, debit card. Cash is a no no because as a woman, if that disappears, whoops! Better to go with the Checks and Debit card for now to be smart with the moeny than not smart.
Savings account numbers look like this:
Started out putting $25 per month in.
Upped that number to $30 per month
Also got other money to put into savings. $53.87 Refund checks AND $250.00 for Disability SSI citizens from President Obama. Voting for him was the best thing I have ever done. In the past, it's never gone my way. Every cantidate I voted for LOST.
He WON. It's a gamble now with the economy, SSI and Medicaid too. I am not in dire straits but who knows what will happen when I appeal another medical expense denial from TX and Austin. Red tape? Absolutely! I have The Audacity of Hope in me, and YES I CAN accomplish this. HONESTY is going to pull me through!
This month I plan to put in an additional $30 into savings. Max amount for both Checking and Savings can only be $2.000. I see this as a bright spot. Here's why. I currently have over $600.00 in Savings ($652.16) and over $800 ($845.00) in checking with bills paid for the month of June. Can I stash at least $60 per month in savings till the end of 2009 and still do this move?
Apartment is nice. 1 bed, 1 bath. 610 square feet. Included are water, trash, sewer! Other bills can be negotiated given it's just me, no pets, or other occupants. Can Susana May afford the new apartment Miss Suze The Financial Action Planner Orman??????
Transportation is covered by the county door to door. Gas is Government Grants. Medical is under Medicaid (Star Plus HMO type plan) and out of pocket till we get me on Medicare Disability after a (I hope I don't need to be in court date) time in which the entire cost of transport etc. is covered by Medicare. Going with TX Healthspring that my folks have....if the state grants it.
Cerebral Palsy. Dissociative Identity Disorder. Moderate. I walk. BA in French in Houston. No problems there. Family and friends are in denial about this stuff.....but it's my life so here I go. 33 years old. Susana has no excuses as to frivolus why nots? because I don't know from others won't cut the mustard with me at this point. I'm stepping out of the box....Way out.
Just thought you could use some background information for the sake of the honesty factor. Ahem....Honesty is always my policy, even when I mess up. What human woman doesn't do that? We all mess up from time to time and the consequences are not dire yet....but boy, I am going to roll with this, and hope for the best. Cheers to you Suze. Approved, Denied.....Life will go on.
Move in date to be determined with full to capacity in the units. I'm guessing I'll be in November, December, or January of 2010 when the wait list factor says we have a unit ready for you. Come on in Susana.
Can Susana afford the new apartment? Thank you Suze for taking the time to comb this and lend me a hand honestly. God bless!
Sincerely,
Susana 33 year old Spring (Houston TX area) fan who has 2 of your books! Oprah, Dr. OZ, Dr. Phil, Dr. Stork, you, Nate Berkus. You all are my angels in waiting! And the memberships for message boards are in my corner too for viewer discussions. I think I'm going to be okay. :)
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