Okay.....

In order for you to fully "get me" with gay, white, CP/DID, Woman Power, ups and downs, stupid stuff, good stuff, bad and indifferent stuff, French and Philosophy stuff, foreign languages and mini job time stuff, educational stuff, family and friends stuff, stupid stupid opinions stuff, stupid bullying times stuff from kids in and out of school the first 12 years of her life stuff, and beyond that into university life stuff, rape stuff in 2005 by a 47 year old Hispanic man who was a fool, never got caught, called her for 2 years after the attack, got blocked and kicked to the curb by her alone, fucking disbelief from family and so called fucking friends, death on a stick from classmates to fucking committed suicide in front of her face, sent the damn notes by snail mail to her a day prior to the shit happening......life and death DO MATTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And nope, you are Idiots and Stupid Girls if you think she's going to fucking die that same fucking way to PROVE HERSELF to YOU idiots in America and the WORLD who think Americans should be hated. YES INDEED. She HATES all of America. The disabiility BS labels, the Jesus Freak labels, the anti gay anti atheist labels, and YOU call this land FREE??????? Nope. Not from the gal's view. This toxic slime world called EARTH is SLIME BS. Global Warming. Fucking Discrimination because she SEES more than you do. She may be CP/DID and Devil She, but damn.....she SEES what you people CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Both sides of the story. Heads AND Tails. Good AND Evil. LOVE AND HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Life.........AND DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Too bad you can't see this the way she always has.....putting her in your boxes and stuff getting this young 26 week preemie to fucking see YOUR view!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As she grew, you fucking told her to GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be MAINSTREAMED. Go be in and out of hospitals, surgery, fucking mental wards, office settings for PT, OT, Speech fucking Pathology, Psychology, Counseling, Psychiatry, medicaions that FRIED her BRAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Get a fucking LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She owes the WORLD NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And she never will ask you for SHIT EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pity? Nope. Stupidity? Nope. Ignorance because you never bothered to READ a SINGLE disability book because your lives mean more to you WITHOUT disabilities that WITH THEM????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? How DARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We, her inner Posse of 20 Aternative Personalities WILL indeed see YOU in HELL!!!!!!!!!! The same Hell you condemn her to every single DAY and NIGHT of HER LIFE. Her musical of her life, Susana: Light and Dark, will be full blown on a stage near you. Directed and Produced by Edward Albee, Tyler Perry, Madea, and a shit load of folks you have probably never heard of in your Jesus Freak Bubbles of YOUR life. Narrow minded? Not her, not us. Get OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Read and see the following if you dare judge her again. And while you are at it....keep in mind that Chris Reeve, Dana Reeve, Ray Charles, Scott May, Jade McCrary, Matthew Powell, Mattie Stepanek, Jalyn Dimmitt, Misty Hartman, Amy Light, Chase Rash, Ken McLead, Jonathan from UH dorm days, Jonathan Larson, Montel Williams, Michael J Fox, and the amazingly talented former drug addict who was in a nasty relationship with co star William Hurt while he was into alcohol.....Deaf actress Marlee Matiln are ALL or NOTHING pulling for Susana Marie May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not to mention:

Queen Latifah
Oprah Winfrey
Nate Berkus
Suze Orman
Gayle King
Dr Phil and Robin Mc Graw and family
Dr. Travis Stork and team of The Doctors
Rachel Ray
Ellen De Generes The GAY LEADER who came out before Susana did. Ellen came out Apirl 30 1997. Susana followed her on May 19, 1997 and she is PROUD as HELL to be GAY because it's not about SEX, but LOVE, and she is OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lisa Marie Presley and family
Elvis Presley
P!nk
And MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Deborah Bray Haddock
Sybil (Shirley Mason) and Nan (a true WOMAN who helps Susana and others with DID LIVE WELL when the EARTH turns it's back in IGNORANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
My Left Foot (A BRILLIANT movie about a man with CP who like Susana is an ARTIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Read.....Educate.....Learn.

Girl, Interrupted with Angelina Jolie and the amazing Whoopi Goldberg who plays Valerie. Claymoore is REAL folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Valerie says this to Susana Kaysen as she is played by Winnona Ryder........

"Susana, Do Not Drop Anchor here in this world. You can go on from here and live well. You have plenty of time, plenty to offer, and you can do this. Do not drop anchor here."

So for those who keep beating me up verbally and emotionally, for those who attack me on the Internet, and on the phone, via snail mail and in person because you are toxic and you almost killed me ten days ago while in St. Luke's Woodlands ER with a Blood Pressure Pulse reading of 158/82 Pulse of 92........

YOU will NOT be the REASON I DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You will also NOT be the REASON I LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you want to die, DO IT ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't threaten me, family, friends, and your own crappy life because YOU have ISSUES too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU need to get the Hell OUT of MY LIFE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You're What You OWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RENT 2005 movie. Nuff said folks! Ba da da da da da....Pfft!

It took me all my life
To finally figure out
That I'm not in the mood
To be anything like you
Maybe it's all right
And maybe now
I'll conduct my choir
I'll Figure It Out

Turbulence.......
I went from Grown into a Ball
Evidence
As I lay dying on my floor
Less and Less......and Less
Hey You
You wore me out and now there's nothing left for me to prove
It's oh so true

Imagine That.....

Thanx for Throwing me the line when I lost sight of it
Your the only reason I can exhale

Little Raven......Beautiful Lady

You can be all the writing on my wall
That you want
And I'll be the line across it
And I'll blow your mind
I'll blow your mind
And I'll blow your mind
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

All the others can shine
Oh but not like I
Can Shine

As the snow flies
On a cold and grey November morn
A new little baby child was born
In the Ghetto
She was tiny and bold and stayed in the cold
In The Ghetto
Then one day a family came and rescued her all just the same
Problems came round and she hit the ground running
In The Ghetto

Then 4 years later in '79 a boy came along with his own tiny life
In The Ghetto
He had ADD and She Had CP and DID in The Ghetto
Bullied every single day and led astray by the family and the world
But they stayed together forever and ever even when the boy died on a bike as a passenger out on a joyrde in The Ghetto

It's now been 9 years since that MAN dissappeared from The Ghetto
Wanted to be a Marine in the USA Armed Forces
But he never made it there because he died on the street
In The Ghetto

She got his ID while home alone from 3 young cops standing at the front door in The Ghetto
Today that man is with her deep inside her soul
Handing her Dos Equis, Pot, Cigs and more
In June Sky from up above
In The Ghetto.........

Elvis and Lisa Marie Presely

Amazing Grace from Graceland

Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
That saved a bitch like she and Scotty
They were not lost but always found
Were NEVER BLIND and they still see
Halleluyer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Harriet Tubman
George Washington Carver
Barak Obama 40 years after Dr. King died
Black Voices Online
And I'm a Super Woman.......yes my life is a mess but I am so blessed with an S on my chest because I'm a Super Woman and I'm Travelin Light. So What if I feel this good Sober??????? The Party has Started Right now!

Try Walking In My Shoes by Depeche Mode too......The Hell life my family describes to this DAY is still TRUE idiots. Deal? or No Deal? You're Hot And Your Cold by Katy Perry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Halla! Imma Diva with Beyonce Cher, Bette, Celine, amd MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bom Boom Pow you like to mess with my style you try to cova my swagga I'm on that next ship now you so 2008 you so 2000 Late, I am gonna move on and keep on Celebratin life and death Will I Am start the beat NOW!

The Energy In Susana Never Dies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Booyah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :] :P O.o :)