Yo! This shizz is tight with me and the NYPD insiders. Last night was totally unexpected, and not even our ladies in Foxfire origins saw this coming. The MD for the Pump was straight talking yesterday, like Dr. Phil straight talking....and we are truly grateful because summer of Hell is about to really get interesting here. Wow. I'm Brandon, B-Man, one of 5 NYPD insiders here in The DID Posse residing in Susana's brain from birth on and it's now been 30 years. We are currently fighting something other than us. An outsider. Schizophrenic in nature. Wow. Question for any human being in the new group since we kicked all toxic folks to the curb, and tolerate people like family and such who we have to keep and yet they sound like underwater globs. Dude.

Is it posible for medications over the years, anti depressants, anti psychotics, and new drugs....Oral Baclofen, Oral Flexeril, a Loresal Intrathecal Baclofen Pump and newbie drug, Cymbalta to mix and cause Schizophrenic tendencies in a DID MPD patient??????????

Here's what we knew as of October 2008 with Dr. Iyre. He said ALL MEDS are OUT! So we thought we were going to be okay.....and then, this summer came. Clean system with no meds for 7 months. Then, Cymbalta enters for Neuropathic pain due to Cerebral Palsy, destroying body and brain. In addition, ER triage gives her Oral Baclofen and Oral Flexeril to offest Pump activity because we had Spasticiy worsening, muscle tightening, severe pain at a 10 rating, and headaches, nausea, and bleeding externally from the scalp, nose, ears, and nail beds.

Cymbalta was also issued for depression, and Hormone Replacement Therapy issues. HELLO?????????????????????? Excuse me???????????????

We didn't even have Exposure to this drug! Clean and sober, body goes....NO! We go into a life threatening withdrawl and BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!! Stoned look in the mirror for 2 whole weeks! 10 Days! Not to mention the Orals and The Pump, which had suspended medication daily in the catheter! No wonder our gal was having brief blackouts visually, and grabbing the wall to steady her body! Screaming HELP and no one with an ounce of common sense in her parent's house could AT LEAST know what Help means!

Here's what we know based on overall relationship crises NOW. DON't MESS WITH SUSANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am PISSED. Current doctor as of yesterday, Tueday June 30th said what we knew....in TRUE Dr. Phil fashion.

Boundaries. This time, I promise you, they will stick so you have no worries when it comes to people screwing with you....PERIOD.

No swearing at the staff.
You need to know your body.
You need to call us whenever you have any issues with any drugs or therapies that we do not authorize.
You need to step away from ALL RELATIONSHIPS. People are NOT to question you, If you need to get to this office or one of our two hospitals, DO NOT PASS GO. Get here. No questions asked. YOU come first!

Okay so again, we thought we were okay.....Until.....we got HOME.

Parents, family, and other professionals had better back off! Clearly we are caught in a crossfire of non professionals who defend the professionals and NOT SUSANA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Damn! What kind of common sense does a human woman need to figure this out? Not much! Um.....folks, this is NOT rocket science!

My wife knows the body. She knows. Legs Sardowsky knows. Susana is Legs. Hell yah! Keep your hands and words off Susana, and keep your stupidity and ignorance out too! And keep it away from whomever the heck else you do this to. How does this feel?

Crazy little punks! That's right....you better move and you'd better....keep moving.

or WHAT? My gals and I stare American Idiots who throw Dookie at us DOWN.

This is outrageous....This is absolutely outrageous! I'm a doctor and a male and female relationship! Lauren, Lauren, you know Susana she's emotionally unstable!

I'm not unstable! I'm not unstable!

Hey! Leave her alone! Take your hands off of her now!

Susana N' Crew slam American Idiots on table in offices and homes, public places across the country!

If you ever.....put your hands on me again, throw your words of ignorance, or your stupid stuff at me again...I'll slice your hands and vocal chords out with my surgical scalpel......All RIGHT????!!!!!!!!!!

Susana.....Sweetheart.....

All right let's go......let's go....get out of here....GO! Erin stands firm with American Idiots. Can you get up? Next time you think about messing with my young woman, you'd better think about this first! Erin Legs Sardowsky leaves America behind.

Susana, sweetheart, did I scare you?
Nope. Get in here.

Spike in Virgo in June Sky.

Here's the deal. We are one in the same now Susana. Talk to me.

I live mostly in my head Erin.
I was thrown out of the mainstream for having Cerebral Palsy, DID, a Hysterectomy, knowing my full self, fictional and authentic, and for THINKING for MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I look into the world's eyes....and if I don't think they are safe, I don't get in the cars!
It's a question of REALLY LOOKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right! Toxic relationships OUT. Pets and Martin and Hollywood actors and musicians IN! It's ON babe! Let's go!

Melissa and Keith will meet us at the ER. We need to get down there Stat. Scalpels and guns from me and the guys are ready.

NYPD! Drop your weapons! Put your hands behind your heads and get on the ground, NOW!

4 Black Revolvers and 1 Silver in action. 2 Silver Scalpels as Keith is ER doc by day, NYPD cop by night. Melissa Stands tall, poised, red hair and green eyes blazing. Touch my WIFE and I KILL YOU!

Lauren Lolita Burre and ladies and 2 little girls hide in alcove adjacent to ER. On call room stage left. Is everyone okay? I think so....Nikki? Abbi? Jamie? Emilye, Melina Allison? Oh God.....we're here.....Shhh.....stay calm and quiet.

Outside, crew is trying to figure out Schizophrenic shizz.

I can't see anyhing Vince! Get Steven and Keith up here! Erin baby?????

I got it! I'm drawn! Go in NOW!

If only we had Jodie, Terrance, and some Anthony Hopkins up here! I still don't see it! Damn!

Wait.....Steve.....what the FRAK????????

Relax fellas.....we got the HORROR industry with us now. Jason, Freddy, Satan, block that exit. We have NO IDEA who this Schizo dude is! Got it! The 3 run down....blocking the exit. GRUDGE! Japan surfaces like a ghost......

6 God Council is off in West Wings! Jack and Angie are here too....

What happened gang?

Not sure. CSI NY should come comb for evidence.

Okay.....new plan. It's not radio or TV in this room. And it's not anyone else in the house. So here's the inconclusive conclusion....BRAIN MEDICAION OVERLOAD.

What are we gonna do?

Round up....I've got an idea......Everyone rounds. Take one of the small fast sleep pills....she needs to sleep.....or we are gonna have more CP stuff than ever. Take it slow gang.....she can't go without it. Milk and fruit isn't enough. Go quick!

Damn it....OTCs and nature mixed with FDA.......GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The next morning......

Hot, sweaty, face wash cold water. Fans, small light sources with less heat. Humidifier. Blood evidence from nose. Stopped Fish Oil. Other supplements in, one at a time, one per day. Slow. Real slow. Pain, tension, back. Increase in Baclofen Tuesday before refill July 9. Careful watchful eyes. Lisa Marie. Elvis. Graceland.....Peace........ ~_~