Wow.....London is my home.....but now, here I am in the USA....personal trainer along with Kerry. Bloody hell.....I hope to go back soon.....to the place where free is not just a word used by professionals who deny this body and mind what it needs......if I could go on video with the crew here, it would be such a relief for everyone, minus the mess of the outside world. Safety first. Oh and my name is Kel....Kellie Jo. I go by Kel. The accent is self explanatory. Duh.

I am prepping the body for sex so she and her wife can make love again.....anything I can do without surgery, or scripts. Meh.....two things we are glad to see gone. Yeah, gone baby gone....who the hell knew? LOL.....CP/DID combo......2x4 in the head, mind, body......shit. Death....we have seen it up close. Suicide, nature, accidents.....morgues are facinating.....Anatomy and Physiology from 2005. Cadavers, inside, outside......us.....our Mansion of 20 rooms........Erin on Meth, Amber with Vodka......Emily Noelle the oldest child....Melina Alison the youngest child, 2 cousins. Yeah. Tess and Stephen, Emily's parents. Melina, child of Melissa and the body. Hysterectomy in 2008, 4.5 pound tumor removal.....no cancer......no babies, and the oral sex rape......the idiot who got away thanks to the therapist who let him go.......his attack and the 2 year follow ups........

Psychotic, Sociopath, DID, Schizophrenia......shit again. And we are not the body's friends?????

I have been there professional idiots in deep dark denial!!!! The next puff, drink, and little one who gets hurt, the gun going off during target practice in the meadow out back with Brandon at the helm. Erin ODing and shooting herself up, gun too....death for real in 2008....alongside Amber......what can you not deny here?????????

Real? Yes. CP/DID combo.....all of it.....kiss my ass you cunt woman. Time, money, blood, sweat and tears. Gone. Disbelief? Front and Center. This war began in 1979.....and now in 2009.....30 years later.......we are so clusterfucked.

We quit Zyprexia.....went on Abilify......got on Paxil CR, Ambien CR.....in the hospital for 4 days in March 2004.....and the doors closed soon after.....our file inside for good. All that goes down....and then....cunt woman does her dance. 6 years of psychiatry follow....men and women. 20 years total of therapy.....and we are numb.

Numb to the fact that we don't have existence. Yet the suicides and death in general......happened, and we outlived those people.....laws aside.....how the hell did that shit happen???????????????

That's all for now.....I'm going to go find Kerry and find out when the next flight plan will be executed. London, here I come.

--Kel