I know why the world is a sick place....because people like me and all of Hollywood, living and deceased.....are sick according to THEM. Too bad. Really. After living 33 years, I FEAR nothing now. Life, Death, Religion, Sex issues, Politics, Medical issues, broken systems, which include, CPS, APS, 911 when you don't have a land line, Educational systems (Savage Inequalities by Kozol), stupid peer pressures and school and post school bullies and rapists.....stupid things that can change....denial, weight, ignorance, indifference.....and the things you can't....Deaf, Blind, Paralyzed, Cerebral Palsy, ADD, Autism Spectrum Disorders, Dieseaes like AIDS and Herpes Type 1 (mine) and Type 2 (Sexual Herpes), being parents, family and friends.....unless of course you use discrimination and hate to despise me and others like Chris Reeve to compare me to Chris......how can you? Chris and I are Disabled. We have The Diss from a country that hates who we are, born or late developed Disabled people....and Able to do it all.....just not like the Able Bodied creeps who ASS UME......we ARE LIKE THEM. Not.

I am not like Able Bodied ASS umers. I don't NEED money to do Theatre, Dance, be healthy on the Inside......just dollars to eat and live. No big deal to me. Tent Cities, AIDS and death, LIFE LIVING......all of the above. Susana Kaysen....You take with you the stuff that haunts you.....because it's part of who YOU are.

I take my good and take my bad I take my good and with my bad and there I have my WHOLE FACTS of MY LIFE!

For the Idiots who ASS ume I am not good enough, not doing enough for America and The World......sorry. Have a small funeral for me. Do what you need to do to end me, to make my legacy the toxic slimy POSITIVE thing YOU need it to be.

While you wring your hands and MOURN my LOSS.....I will live on. My END is not YOURS. When June Sky, Foxfire, Gia, Girls Interrupted and Lost and Found, And Graceland find me time and time again.....You will LOSE me.

A ton of you say things with words, thoughts, deeds, from your solo God. Not me. I have heard it all. Slut, Liar, Imperfect, not good enough, and you wonder why i focus on NEGATIVE??????? DUH!!!!!!!!!!!! I get it from all of you bullies who say what you say, and have no PROOF that I am worth anything because your issues override who I really am in my SOUL.

The guys of Columbine and Virginia Tech have my utmost respect. I am not sick. I am disabled. Any idiot knows DID and MPD and CP are protective mechanisms to live well in a body that is clearly unable to CURE it's stuff of life and death.

And CURE is more than just my favorite 80s band. It's also the biggest LIE anyone has ever told in this world. Cure? Recovery? Hahaha very funny. Bring all the dead back to life and then cure them first. Show me how you can cure people like Scott May, Ray Charles, Chris Reeve, Dana Reeve, Mattie Stepanek, Jade McCrary, Matthew Powell, Mark Massaro.....and ME!

CURE US......RECOVER US.....and don't stop till you do. Then, you can CURE, and NOT RECOVER, AIDS, CANCER, MS, MD, and all the other diseases and disorders YOU create America and world. You've only got 4 Minutes, to CURE the WORLD. Go....I will time you.

And while I wait....my tiny world, black and white, Technicolor world, world where I can SCREAM, Jam, Be Dangerous, a Thriller, and LIVE my TRUE HUMAN NATURE in HISTORY.....BOOM. Michael Jackson is ALIVE! Kiss my ASS......umers!

Ciao! All your words are nice WORLD but my loves not a three way street, you'll never KNOW REAL LOVE until you LOVE YOURSELF I should know! Roger, Adam Pascal RENT 1996/2005 DVD. Written and created by the beloved Jonathan Larson....whom I Will Cover with 1,000 Kisses and little baggage for MY WHOLE LIFE AND DEATH and AFTERLIFE in Atheist Land! ALL religions and sexes, and politics have room to grow in my world. Do you accept or deny me again??????

C ya.....The choice is yours. :]